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- CHAPTER FORTY
-
- When the first bitterness was over, the family accepted
- the inevitable, and tried to bear it cheerfully, helping one
- another by the increased affection which comes to bind house-
- holds tenderly together in times of trouble. They put away
- their grief, and each did his or her part toward making that
- last year a happy one.
-
- The pleasantest room in the house was set apart for Beth,
- and in it was gathered everything that she most loved, flowers,
- pictures, her piano, the little worktable, and the beloved
- pussies. Father's best books found their way there, Mother's
- easy chair, Jo's desk, Amy's finest sketches, and every day
- Meg brought her babies on a loving pilgrimage, to make sunshine
- for Aunty Beth. John quietly set apart a little sum, that he
- might enjoy the pleasure of keeping the invalid supplied with
- the fruit she loved and longed for. Old Hannah never wearied
- of concocting dainty dishes to tempt a capricious appetite,
- dropping tears as she worked, and from across the sea came
- little gifts and cheerful letters, seeming to bring breaths
- of warmth and fragrance from lands that know no winter.
-
- Here, cherished like a household saint in its shrine, sat
- Beth, tranquil and busy as ever, for nothing could change the
- sweet, unselfish nature, and even while preparing to leave
- life, she tried to make it happier for those who should remain
- behind. The feeble fingers were never idle, and one of her
- pleasures was to make little things for the school children
- daily passing to and fro, to drop a pair of mittens from her
- window for a pair of purple hands, a needlebook for some small
- mother of many dolls, penwipers for young penmen toiling through
- forests of pothooks, scrapbooks for picture-loving eyes, and
- all manner of pleasant devices, till the reluctant climbers of
- the ladder of learning found their way strewn with flowers, as
- it were, and came to regard the gentle giver as a sort of fairy
- godmother, who sat above there, and showered down gifts miracu-
- lously suited to their tastes and needs. If Beth had wanted any
- reward, she found it in the bright little faces always turned up
- to her window, with nods and smiles, and the droll little letters
- which came to her, full of blots and gratitude.
-
- The first few months were very happy ones, and Beth often
- used to look round, and say "How beautiful this is!" as they
- all sat together in her sunny room, the babies kicking and crow-
- ing on the floor, mother and sisters working near, and father
- reading, in his pleasant voice,from the wise old books which
- seemed rich in good and comfortable words, as applicable now as
- when written centuries ago, a little chapel, where a paternal
- priest taught his flock the hard lessons all must learn, trying
- to show them that hope can comfort love, and faith make resig-
- nation possible. Simple sermons, that went straight to the souls
- of those who listened, for the father's heart was in the minister's
- religion, and the frequent falter in the voice gave a double
- eloquence to the words he spoke or read.
-
- It was well for all that this peaceful time was given them
- as preparation for the sad hours to come, for by-and-by, Beth
- said the needle was `so heavy', and put it down forever. Talking
- wearied her, faces troubled her, pain claimed her for its own,
- and her tranquil spirit was sorrowfully perturbed by the ills
- that vexed her feeble flesh. Ah me! Such heavy days, such long,
- long nights, such aching hearts and imploring prayers, when those
- who loved her best were forced to see the thin hands stretched out
- to them beseechingly, to hear the bitter cry, "Help me, help me!"
- and to feel that there was no help. A sad eclipse of the serene
- soul, a sharp struggle of the young life with death, but both were
- mercifully brief, and then the natural rebellion over, the old peace
- returned more beautiful than ever. With the wreck of her frail body,
- Beth's soul grew strong, and though she said little, those about her
- felt that she was ready, saw that the first pilgrim called was like-
- wise the fittest, and waited with her on the shore, trying to see
- the Shining Ones coming to receive her when she crossed the river.
-
- Jo never left her for an hour since Beth had said "I feel
- stronger when you are here." She slept on a couch in the room,
- waking often to renew the fire, to feed, lift, or wait upon the
- patient creature who seldom asked for anything, and `tried not to
- be a trouble'. All day she haunted the room, jealous of any other
- nurse, and prouder of being chosen then than of any honor her life
- ever brought her. Precious and helpful hours to Jo, for now her
- heart received the teaching that it needed. Lessons in patience
- were so sweetly taught her that she could not fail to learn them,
- charity for all, the lovely spirit that can forgive and truly
- forget unkindness, the loyalty to duty that makes the hardest
- easy, and the sincere faith that fears nothing, but trusts un-
- doubtingly.
-
- Often when she woke Jo found Beth reading in her well-worn
- little book, heard her singing softly, to beguile the sleepless
- night, or saw her lean her face upon her hands, while slow tears
- dropped through the transparent fingers, and Jo would lie watch-
- ing her with thoughts too deep for tears, feeling that Beth, in
- her simple, unselfish way, was trying to wean herself from the
- dear old life, and fit herself for the life to come, by sacred
- words of comfort, quiet prayers, and the music she loved so well.
-
- Seeing this did more for Jo than the wisest sermons, the
- saintliest hymns, the most fervent prayers that any voice could
- utter. For with eyes made clear by many tears, and a heart
- softened by the tenderest sorrow, she recognized the beauty of
- her sister's life--uneventful, unambitious, yet full of the
- genuine virtues which `smell sweet, and blossom in the dust',
- the self-forgetfulness that makes the humblest on earth re-
- membered soonest in heaven, the true success which is possible
- to all.
-
- One night when Beth looked among the books upon her table,
- to find something to make her forget the mortal weariness that
- was almost as hard to bear as pain, as she turned the leaves of
- her old favorite, Pilgrims's Progress, she found a little paper,
- scribbled over in Jo's hand. The name caught her eye and the
- blurred look of the lines made her sure that tears had fallen
- on it.
-
- "Poor Jo! She's fast asleep, so I won't wake her to ask
- leave. She shows me all her things, and I don't think she'll
- mind if I look at this", thought Beth, with a glance at her
- sister, who lay on the rug, with the tongs beside her, ready
- to wake up the minute the log fell apart.
-
- MY BETH
-
- Sitting patient in the shadow
- Till the blessed light shall come,
- A serene and saintly presence
- Sanctifies our troubled home.
- Earthly joys and hopes and sorrows
- Break like ripples on the strand
- Of the deep and solemn river
- Where her willing feet now stand.
-
- O my sister, passing from me,
- Out of human care and strife,
- Leave me, as a gift, those virtues
- Which have beautified your life.
- Dear, bequeath me that great patience
- Which has power to sustain
- A cheerful, uncomplaining spirit
- In its prison-house of pain.
-
- Give me, for I need it sorely,
- Of that courage, wise and sweet,
- Which has made the path of duty
- Green beneath your willing feet.
- Give me that unselfish nature,
- That with charity devine
- Can pardon wrong for love's dear sake--
- Meek heart, forgive me mine!
-
- Thus our parting daily loseth
- Something of its bitter pain,
- And while learning this hard lesson,
- My great loss becomes my gain.
- For the touch of grief will render
- My wild nature more serene,
- Give to life new aspirations,
- A new trust in the unseen.
-
- Henceforth, safe across the river,
- I shall see forever more
- A beloved, household spirit
- Waiting for me on the shore.
- Hope and faith, born of my sorrow,
- Guardian angels shall become,
- And the sister gone before me
- By their hands shall lead me home.
-
- Blurred and blotted, faulty and feeble as the lines were, they
- brought a look of inexpressible comfort to Beth's face, for her one
- regret had been that she had done so little, and this seemed to assure
- her that her life had not been useless, that her death would not bring
- the despair she feared. As she sat with the paper folded between her
- hands, the charred log fell asunder. Jo started up, revived the blaze,
- and crept to the bedside, hoping Beth slept.
-
- "Not asleep, but so happy, dear. See, I found this and read it.
- I knew you wouldn't care. Have I been all that to you, Jo?" she
- asked, with wistful, humble earnestness.
-
- "OH, Beth, so much, so much!" And Jo's head went down upon the
- pillow beside her sister's.
-
- "Then I don't feel as if I'd wasted my life. I'm not so good
- as you make me, but I have tried to do right. And now, when it's
- too late to begin even to do better, it's such a comfort to know
- that someone loves me so much, and feels as if I'd helped them."
-
- "More than any one in the world, Beth. I used to think I
- couldn't let you go, but I'm learning to feel that I don't lose
- you, that you'll be more to me than ever, and death can't part
- us, though it seems to."
-
- "I know it cannot, and I don't fear it any longer, for I'm
- sure I shall be your Beth still, to love and help you more than
- ever. You must take my place, Jo, and be everything to Father
- and Mother when I'm gone. They will turn to you, don't fail
- them, and if it's hard to work alone, remember that I don't
- forget you, and that you'll be happier in doing that than writing
- splendid books or seeing all the world, for love is the only thing
- that we can carry with us when we go, and it makes the go easy."
-
- "I'll try, Beth." And then and there Jo renounced her old
- ambition, pledged herself to a new and better one, acknowledging
- the poverty of other desires, and feeling the blessed solace of
- a belief in the immortality of love.
-
- So the spring days came and went , the sky grew clearer, the
- earth greener, the flowers were up fairly early, and the birds
- came back in time to say goodbye to Beth, who, like a tired but
- trustful child, clung to the hands that had led her all her life,
- as Father and Mother guided her tenderly through the Valley of
- the Shadow, and gave her up to God.
-
- Seldom except in books do the dying utter memorable words,
- see visions, or depart with beatified countenances, and those
- who have sped many parting souls know that to most the end
- comes as naturally and simply as sleep. As Beth had hoped, the
- `tide went out easily', and in the dark hour before dawn, on
- the bosom where she had drawn her first breath, she quietly
- drew her last, with no farewell but one loving look, one little
- sigh.
-
- With tears and prayers and tender hands, Mother and sisters
- made her ready for the long sleep that pain would never mar again,
- seeing with grateful eyes the beautiful serenity that soon replaced
- the pathetic patience that had wrung their hearts so long, and
- feeling with reverent joy that to their darling death was a
- benignant angel, not a phantom full of dread.
-
- When morning came, for the first time in many months the
- fire was out, Jo's place was empty, and the room was very still.
- But a bird sang blithely on a budding bough, close by, the snow-
- drops blossomed freshly at the window, and the spring sunshine
- streamed in like a benediction over the placid face upon the
- pillow, a face so full of painless peace that those who loved
- it best smiled through their tears, and thanked God that Beth
- was well at last.
-
-
- CHAPTER FORTY-ONE
-
- Amy's lecture did Laurie good, though, of course, he did
- not own it till long afterward. Men seldom do, for when women
- are the advisers, the lords of creation don't take the advice
- till they have persuaded themselves that it is just what they
- intended to do. Then they act upon it, and, if it succeeds,
- they give the weaker vessel half the credit of it. If it
- fails, they generously give her the whole. Laurie went back
- to his grandfather, and was so dutifully devoted for several
- weeks that the old gentleman declared the climate of Nice had
- improved him wonderfully, and he had better try it again.
- There was nothing the young gentleman would have liked better,
- but elephants could not have dragged him back after the scold-
- ing he had received. Pride forbid, and whenever the longing
- grew very strong, he fortified his resolution by repeating
- the words that had made the deepest impression, "I despise
- you." "Go and do something splendid that will make her love
- you."
-
- Laurie turned the matter over in his mind so often that he
- soon brought himself to confess that he had been selfish and
- lazy, but then when a man has a great sorrow, he should be in-
- dulged in all sorts of vagaries till he has lived it down. He
- felt that his blighted affections were quite dead now, and
- though he should never cease to be a faithful mourner, there
- was no occasion to wear his weeds ostentatiously. Jo wouldn't
- love him, but he might make her respect and admire him by doing
- something which should prove that a girl's no had not spoiled
- his life. He had always meant to do something, and Amy's
- advice was quite unnecessary. He had only been waiting till
- the aforesaid blighted affections were decently interred. That
- being done, he felt that he was ready to `hide his stricken
- heart, and still toil on'.
-
- As Goethe, when he had a joy or a grief, put it into a song,
- so Laurie resolved to embalm his love sorrow in music, and to
- compose a Requiem which should harrow up Jo's soul and melt the
- heart of every hearer. Therefore the next time the old gentle-
- man found him getting restless and moody and ordered him off,
- he went to Vienna, where he had musical friends, and fell to
- work with the firm determination to distinguish himself. But
- whether the sorrow was too vast to be embodied in music, or
- music too ethereal to uplift a mortal woe, he soon discovered
- that the Requiem was beyond him just at present. It was evi-
- dent that his mind was not in working order yet, and his ideas
- needed clarifying, for often in the middle of a plaintive strain,
- he would find himself humming a dancing tune that vividly re-
- called the Christmas ball at Nice, especially the stout French-
- man, and put an effectual stop to tragic composition for the
- time being.
-
- Then he tried an opera, for nothing seemed impossible in
- the beginning, but here again unforeseen difficulties beset
- him. He wanted Jo for his heroine, and called upon his memory
- to supply him with tender recollections and romantic visions
- of his love. But memory turned traitor, and as if possessed
- by the perverse spirit of the girl, would only recall Jo's
- oddities, faults, and freaks, would only show her in the most
- unsentimental aspects--beating mats with her head tied up in
- a bandana, barricading herself with the sofa pillow, or throw-
- ing cold water over his passion a la Gummidge--and an irresis-
- table laugh spoiled the pensive picture he was endeavoring to
- paint. Jo wouldn't be put into the opera at any price, and he
- had to give her up with a "Bless that girl, what a torment she is!"
- and a clutch at his hair, as became a distracted composer.
-
- When he looked about him for another and a less intractable
- damsel to immortalize in melody, memory produced one with the
- most obliging readiness. This phantom wore many faces, but it
- always had golden hair, was enveloped in a diaphanous cloud, and
- floated airily before his mind's eye in a pleasing chaos of roses,
- peacocks, white ponies, and blue ribbons. He did not give the
- complacent wraith any name, but he took her for his heroine and
- grew quite fond of her, as well he might, for he gifted her with
- every gift and grace under the sun, and escorted her, unscathed,
- through trials which would have annihilated any mortal woman.
-
- Thanks to this inspiration, he got on swimmingly for a time,
- but gradually the work lost its charm, and he forgot to compose,
- while he sat musing, pen in hand, or roamed about the gay city
- to get some new ideas and refresh his mind, which seemed to be
- in a somewhat unsettled state that winter. He did not do much,
- but he thought a great deal and was conscious of a change of
- some sort going on in spite of himself. "It's genius simmering,
- perhaps. I'll let it simmer, and see what comes of it," he said,
- with a secret suspicion all the while that it wasn't genius, but
- something far more common. Whatever it was, it simmered to
- some purpose, for he grew more and more discontented with his
- desultory life, began to long for some real and earnest work
- to go at, soul and body, and finally came to the wise conclu-
- sion that everyone who loved music was not a composer. Return-
- ing from one of Mozart's grand operas, splendidly performed at
- the Royal Theatre, he looked over his own, played a few of the
- best parts, sat staring at the busts of Mendelssohn, Beethoven,
- and bach, who stared benignly back again. Then suddenly he
- tore up his music sheets, one by one, and as the last fluttered
- out of his hand, he said soberly to himself . . .
-
- "She is right! Talent isn't genius, and you can't make it
- so. That music has taken the vanity out of my as Rome took it
- out of her, and I won't be a humbug any longer. Now what shall
- I do?"
-
- That seemed a hard question to answer, and Laurie began to
- wish he had to work for his daily bread. Now if ever, occurred
- an eligible opportunity for `going to the devil', as he once
- forcibly expressed it, for he had plenty of money and nothing
- to do, and Satan is proverbially fond of providing employment
- for full and idle hands. The poor fellow had temptations
- enough from without and from within, but he withstood them
- pretty well, for much as he valued liberty, he valued good
- faith and confidence more, so his promise to his grandfather,
- and his desire to be able to look honestly into the eyes of
- the women who loved him, and say "All's well," kept him safe
- and steady.
-
- Very likely some Mrs. Grundy will observe, "I don't be-
- lieve it, boys will be boys, young men must sow their wild
- oats, and women must not expect miracles." I dare say you
- don't, Mrs. Grundy, but it's true nevertheless. Women work
- a good many miracles, and I have a persuasion that they may
- perform even that of raising the standard of manhood by
- refusing to echo such sayings. Let the boys be boys, the
- longer the better, and let the young men sow their wild oats
- if they must. But mothers, sisters, and friends may help to
- make the crop a small one, and keep many tares from spoiling
- the harvest, by believing, and showing that they believe, in
- the possibility of loyalty to the virtues which make men man-
- liest in good women's eyes. If it is a feminine delusion,
- leave us to enjoy it while we may, for without it half the
- beauty and the romance of life is lost, and sorrowful fore-
- bodings would embitter all our hopes of the brave, tender-
- hearted little lads, who still love their mothers better than
- themselves and are not ashamed to own it.
-
- Laurie thought that the task of forgetting his love for Jo
- would absorb all his powers for years, but to his great surprise
- he discovered it grew easier every day. He refused to believe
- it at first, got angry with himself, and couldn't understand it,
- but these hearts of ours are curious and contrary things, and
- time and nature work their will in spite of us. Laurie's heart
- wouldn't ache. The wound persisted in healing with a rapidity
- that astonished him, and instead of trying to forget, he found
- himself trying to remember. He had not foreseen this turn of
- affairs, and was not prepared for it. He was disgusted with
- himself, surprised at his own fickleness, and full of a
- queer mixture of disappointment and relief that he could re-
- cover from such a tremendous blow so soon. He carefully
- stirred up the embers of his lost love, but they refused to
- burst into a blaze. There was only a comfortable glow that
- warmed and did him good without putting him into a fever,
- and he was reluctantly obliged to confess that the boyish
- passion was slowly subbsiding into a more tranquil sentiment,
- very tender, a little sad and resentful still, but that was
- sure to pass away in time, leaving a brotherly affection
- which would last unbroken to the end.
-
- As the word `brotherly' passed through his mind in one
- of his reveries, he smiled, and glanced up at the picture of
- Mozart that was before him . . .
-
- "Well, he was a great man, and when he couldn't have
- one sister he took the other, and was happy."
-
- Laurie did not utter the words, but he thought them, and
- the next instant kissed the little old ring, saying to himself,
- "No, I won't! I haven't forgotten, I never can. I'll try again,
- and if that fails, why then . . .
-
- Leaving his sentence unfinished, he seized pen and paper
- and wrote to Jo, telling her that he could not settle to any-
- thing while there was the least hope of her changing her mind.
- Couldn't she, wouldn't she, and let him come home and be happy?
- While waiting for an answer he did nothing, but he did it
- energetically, for he was in a fever of impatience. It came
- at last, and settled his mind effectually on one point, for Jo
- decidedly couldn't and wouldn't. She was wrapped up in Beth,
- and never wished to hear the word love again. Then she begged
- him to be happy with somebody else, but always keep a little
- corner of his ghart for his loving sister Jo. In a postscript
- she desired him not to tell Amy that Beth was worse, she was
- coming home in the spring and there was no need of saddening
- the remainder of her stay. That would be time enough, please
- God, but Laurie must write to her often, and not let her feel
- lonely, homesick or anxious.
-
- "So I will, at once. Poor little girl, it will be a sad
- going home for her, I'm afraid." And Laurie opened his desk,
- as if writing to Amy had been the proper conclusion of the
- sentence left unfinished some weeks before.
-
- But he did not write the letter that day, for as he rum-
- maged out his best paper, he came across something which
- changed his purpose. Tumbling about in one part of the desk
- among bills, passports, and business documents of various kinds
- were several of Jo's letters, and in another compartment were
- three notes from Amy, carefully tied up with one of her blue
- ribbons and sweetly suggestive of the little dead roses put
- away inside. with a half-repentant, half-amused expression,
- Laurie gathered up all Jo's letters, smoothed, folded,and put
- them neatly into a small drawer of the desk, stood a minute
- turning the ring thoughtfully on his finger, then slowly drew
- it off, laid it with the letters, locked the drawer, and went
- out to hear High Mass at Saint Stefan's, feeling as if there
- had been a funeral, and though not overwhelmed with affliction,
- this seemed a more proper way to spend the rest of the day than
- in writing letters to charming young ladies.
-
- The letter went very soon, however, and was promptly ans-
- wered, for Amy was homesick, and confessed it in the most
- delightfully confiding manner. The correspondence flourished
- famously, and letters flew to and fro with unfailing regularity
- all through the early spring. Laurie sold his busts, made
- allumettes of his opera, and went back to Paris, hoping some-
- body would arrive before long. He wanted desperately to go
- to Nice, but would not till he was asked, and Amy would not
- ask him, for just then she was having little experiences of
- her own, which made her rather wish to avoid the quizzical
- eyes of `out boy'.
-
- Fred Vaughn had returned, and put the question to which
- she had once decided to answer, "Yes, thank you," but now she
- said, "No, thank you," kindly but steadily, for when the time
- came, her courage failed her, and she found that something
- more than money and position was needed to satisfy the new
- longing that filled her heart so full of tender hopes and
- fears. The words, "Fred is a good fellow, but not at all
- the man I fancied you would ever like," and Laurie's face
- when he uttered them, kept returning to her as pertinaciously
- as her own did when she said in look, if not in words, "I
- shall marry for money." It troubled her to remember that
- now, she wished she could take it back, it sounded so un-
- womanly. She didn't want Laurie to think her a heartless,
- worldly creature. She didn't care to be a queen of society
- now half so much as she did to be a lovable woman. She was
- so glad he didn't hate her for the dreadful things she said,
- but took them so beautifully and was kinder than ever. His
- letters were such a comfort, for the home letters were very
- irregular and not half so satisfactory as his when they did
- come. It was not only a pleasure, but a duty to answer them,
- for the poor fellow was forlorn, and needed petting, since Jo
- persisted in being stonyhearted. She ought to have made an
- effort and tried to love him. It couldn't be very hard,
- many people would be proud and glad to have such a dear boy
- care for them. But Jo never would act like other girls, so
- there was nothing to do but be very kind and treat him like
- a brother.
-
- If all brothers were treated as well as Laurie was at
- this period, they would be a much happier race of beings than
- they are. Amy never lectured now. She asked his opinion on
- all subjects, she was interested in everything he did, made
- charming little presents for him, and sent him two letters
- a week, full of lively gossip, sisterly confidences, and cap-
- tivating sketches of the lovely scenes about her. As few
- brothers are complimented by having their letters carried
- about in their sister's pockets, read and reread diligently,
- cried over when short, kissed when long, and treasured care-
- fully, we will not hint that Amy did any of these fond and
- foolish things. But she certainly did grow a little pale
- and pensive that spring, lost much of her relish for society,
- and went out sketching alone a good deal. She never had much
- to show when she came home, but was studying nature, I dare
- say, while she sat for hours, with her hands folded, on the
- terrace at Valrosa, or absently sketched any fancy that
- occurred to her, a stalwart knight carved on a tomb, a young
- man asleep in the grass, with his hat over his eyes, or a curly-
- haired girl in gorgeous array, promenading down a ballroom on
- the arm of a tall gentleman, both faces being left a blur
- according to the last fashion in art, which was safe but not
- altogether satisfactory.
-
- Her aunt thought that she regretted her answer to Fred,
- and finding denials useless and explanations impossible, Amy
- left her to think what she liked, taking care that Laurie
- should know that Fred had gone to Egypt. That was all, but
- he understood it, and looked relieved, as he said to himself,
- with a venerable air . ..
-
- "I was sure she would think better of it. Poor old fellow!
- I've been through it all, and I can sympathize."
-
- With that he heaved a great sigh, and then, as if he had
- discharged his duty to the past, put his feet up on the sofa
- and enjoyed Amy's letter luxuriously.
-
- While these changes were going on abroad, trouble had
- come at home. But the letter telling that Beth was failing
- never reached Amy, and when the next found her at Vevay, for
- the heat had driven them from Nice in May, and they had tra-
- velled slowly to Switzerland, by way of Genoa and the Italian
- lakes. She bore it very well, and quietly submitted to the
- family decree that she should not shorten her visit, for
- since it was too late to say goodbye to Beth, she had better
- stay, and let absence soften her sorrow. But her heart was
- very heavy, she longed to be at home, and every day looked
- wistfully across the lake, waiting for Laurie to come and
- comfort her.
-
- He did come very soon, for the same mail brought letters
- to them both, but he was in Germany, and it took some days to
- reach him. The moment he read it, he packed his knapsack,
- bade adieu to his fellow pedestrians, and was off to keep his
- promise, with a heart full of joy and sorrow, hope and sus-
- pense.
-
- He knew Vevay well, and as soon as the boat touched the
- little quay, he hurried along the shore to La Tour, where the
- Carrols were living en pension. The garcon was in despair
- that the whole family had gone to take a promenade on the
- lake, but no, the blonde mademoiselle might be in the chateau
- garden. If monsier would give himself the pain of sitting
- down, a flash of time should present her. But monsieur could
- not wait even a `flash of time', and in the middle of the
- speech departed to find mademoiselle himself.
-
- A pleasant old garden on the borders of the lovely lake,
- with chestnuts rustling overhead, ivy climbing everywhere, and
- the black shadow of the tower falling far across the sunny
- water. At one corner of the wide, low wall was a seat,and here
- Amy often came to read or work, or console herself with the
- beauty all about her. She was sitting here that day, leaning
- her head on her hand, with a homesick heart and heavy eyes,
- thinking of Beth and wondering why Laurie did not come. She
- did not hear him cross the courtyard beyond, nor see him pause
- in the archway that led from the subterranean path into the
- garden. He stood a minute looking at her with new eyes, seeing
- what no one had ever seen before, the tender side of Amy's char-
- acter. Everything about her mutely suggested love and sorrow,
- the blotted letters in her lap, the black ribbon that tied up
- her hair, the womanly pain and patience in her face, even the
- little ebony cross at her throat seemed pathetic to Laurie,
- for he had given it to her, and she wore it as her only orna-
- ment. If he had any doubts about the reception she would give
- him, they were set at rest the minute she looked up and saw
- him, for dropping everything, she ran to him, exclaiming in a
- tone of unmistakable love and longing . . .
-
- "Oh, Laurie, Laurie, I knew you'd come to me!"
-
- I think everything was said and settled then, for as they
- stood together quite silent for a moment, with the dark head
- bent down protectingly over the light one, Amy felt that no
- one could comfort and sustain her so well as Laurie, and
- Laurie decided that Amy was the only woman in the world who
- could fill Jo's place and make him happy. He did not tell her
- so, but she was not disappointed, for both felt the truth,
- were satisfied, and gladly left the rest to silence.
-
- In a minute Amy went back to her place, and while she
- dried her tears, Laurie gathered up the scattered papers,
- finding in the sight of sundry well-worn letters and suggestive
- sketches good omens for the future. As he sat down beside her,
- amy felt shy again, and turned rosy red at the recollection of
- her impulsive greeting.
-
- "I couldn't help it, I felt so lonely and sad, and was so
- very glad to see you. It was such a surprise to look up and find
- you, just as I was beginning to fear you wouldn't come," she said,
- trying in vain to speak quite naturally.
-
- "I came the minute I heard. I wish I could say something
- to comfort you for the loss of dear little Beth, but I can only
- feel, and . . ." He could not get any further, for her too
- turned bashful all of a sudden, and did not quite know what to
- say. He longed to lay Amy's head down on his shoulder, and tell
- her to have a good cry, but he did not dare, so took her hand
- instead, and gave it a sympathetic squeeze that was better than
- words.
-
- "You needn't say anything, this comforts me," she said
- softly. "Beth is well and happy, and I mustn't wish her back,
- but I dread the going home, much as I long to see them all.
- We won't talk about it now, for it makes me cry, and I want
- to enjoy you while you stay. You needn't go right back, need
- you?"
-
- "Not if you want me, dear."
-
- "I do, so much. Aunt and Flo are very kind, but you
- seem like one of the family, and it would be so comfortable to
- have you for a little while."
-
- Amy spoke and looked so like a homesick child whose heart
- was full that Laurie forgot his bashfulness all at once, and
- gave her just what she wanted--the petting she was used to and
- the cheerful conversation she needed.
-
- "Poor little soul, you look as if you'd grieved yourself
- half sick! I'm going to take care of you, so don't cry any
- more, but come and walk about with me, the wind is too chilly
- for you to sit still," he said, in the half-caressing, half-
- commanding way that Amy liked, as he tied on her hat, drew
- her arm through his, and began to pace up and down the
- sunny walk under the new-leaved chestnuts. He felt more at
- ease upon his legs, and Amy found it pleasant to have a strong
- arm to lean upon, a familiar face to smile at her, and a kind
- voice to talk delightfully for her alone.
-
- The quaint old garden had sheltered many pairs of lovers,
- and seemed expressly made for them, so sunny and secluded was
- it, with nothing but the tower to overlook them, and the wide
- lake to carry away the echo of their words, as it rippled by
- below. For an hour this new pair walked and talked, or rested
- on the wall, enjoying the sweet influences which gave such a
- charm to time and place, and when an unromantic dinner bell
- warned them away, Amy felt as if she left her burden of lon-
- liness and sorrow behind her in the chateau garden.
-
- The moment Mrs. Carrol saw the girl's altered face, she
- was illuminated with a new idea, and exclaimed to herself,
- "Now I understand it all--the child has been pining for young
- Laurence. Bless my heart, I never thought of such a thing!"
-
- With praiseworthy discretion, the good lady said nothing,
- and betrayed no sign of enlightenment, but cordially urged
- Laurie to stay and begged Amy to enjoy his society, for it
- would do her more good than so much solitude. Amy was a
- model of docility, and as her aunt was a good deal occupied
- with Flo, she was left to entertain her friend, and did it
- with more than her usual success.
-
- At Nice, Laurie had lounged and Amy had scolded. At
- Vevay, Laurie was never idle, but always walking, riding,
- boating, or studying in the most energetic manner, while
- Amy admired everything he did and followed his example as
- far and as fast as she could. He said the change was owing
- to the climate, and she did not contradict him, being glad
- of a like excuse for her own recovered health and spirits.
-
- The invigorating air did them both good, and much ex-
- ercise worked wholesome changes in minds as well as bodies.
- They seemed to get clearer views of life and duty up there
- among the everlasting hills. The fresh winds blew away
- desponding doubts, delusive fancies, and moody mists. The
- warm spring sunshine brought out all sorts of aspiring ideas,
- tender hopes, and happy thoughts. The lake seemed to wash
- away the troubles of the past, and the grand old mountains
- to look benignly down upon them saying, "Little children,
- love one another."
-
- In spite of the new sorrow, it was a very happy time, so
- happy that Laurie could not bear to disturb it by a word. It
- took him a little while to recover from his surprise at the
- cure of his first, and as he had firmly believed, his last
- and only love. He consoled himself for the seeming disloyalty
- by the thought that Jo's sister was almost the same as Jo's
- self, and the conviction that it would have been impossible
- to love any other woman but Amy so soon and so well. His first
- wooing had been of the tempestuous order, and he looked back
- upon ;it as if through a long vista of years with a feeling of
- compassion blended with regret. He was not ashamed of it,
- but put it away as one of the bitter-sweet experiences of his
- life, for which he could be grateful when the pain was over.
- His second wooing, he resolved, should be as calm and simple
- as possible. There was no need of having a scene, hardly
- any need of telling Amy that he loved her, she knew it with-
- out words and had given him his answer long ago. It all came
- about so naturally that no one could complain, and he knew that
- everybody would be pleased, even Jo. But when our first little
- passion has been crushed, we are apt to be wary and slow in mak-
- ing a second trial, so Laurie let the days pass, enjoying every
- hour, and leaving to chance the utterance of the word that would
- put an end to the first and sweetest part of his new romance.
-
- He had rather imagined that the denoument would take place
- in the chateau garden by moonlight, and in the most graceful and
- decorus manner, but it turned out exactly the reverse, for the
- matter was settled on the lake at noonday in a few blunt words.
- They had been floating about all the morning, from gloomy St. Gin-
- golf to sunny Montreux, with the Alps of Savoy on one side, Mont
- St. Bernard and the Dent du Midi on the other, pretty Vevay in
- the valley, and Lausanne upon the hill beyond, a cloudless blue
- sky overhead, and the bluer lake below, dotted with the pictur-
- esque boats that look like white-winged gulls.
-
- They had been talking of Bonnivard, as they glided past
- Chillon, and of Rousseau, as they looked up at Clarens, where he
- wrote his Heloise. Neither had read it, but they knew it was a
- love story, and each privately wondered if it was half as inte-
- resting as their own. Amy had been dabbling her hand in the water
- during the little pause that fell between them, and when she looked
- up, Laurie was leaning on his oars with an expression in his eyes
- that made her say hastily, merely for the sake of saying something . .
-
- "You must be tired. Rest a little, and let me row. It will
- do me good, for since you came I have been altogether lazy and
- luxurious."
-
- "I'm not tired, but you may take an oar, if you like. There's
- room enough, though I have to sit nearly in the middle, else the
- boat won't trim," returned Laurie, as if he rather liked the arrang-
- ment.
-
- Feeling that she had not mended matters much, Amy took the
- offered third of a seat, shook her hair over her face, and accepted
- an oar. She rowed as well as she did many other things, and though
- she used both hands, and Laurie but one, the oars kept time, and
- the boat went smoothly through the water.
-
- "How well we pull together, don't we?" said Amy, who objected
- to silence just then.
-
- "So well that I wish we might always pull in the same boat.
- Will you,Amy?" very tenderly.
-
- "Yes, Laurie," very low.
-
- Then they both stopped rowing, and unconsciously added a
- pretty little tableau of human love and happiness to the dissolving
- views reflected in the lake.
-
-
- CHAPTER FORTY-TWO
-
- It was easy to promise self-abnegation when self was
- wrapped up in another, and heart and soul were purified by a
- sweet example. But when the helpful voice was silent, the
- daily lesson over, the beloved presence gone, and nothing re-
- mained but lonliness and grief, then Jo found her promise very
- hard to keep. How could she `comfort Father and Mother' when
- her own heart ached with a ceaseless longing for her sister,
- how could she `make the house cheerful' when all its light and
- warmth and beauty seemed to have deserted it when Beth left the
- old home for the new, and where in all the world could she `find
- some useful, happy work to do', that would take the place of the
- loving service which had been its own reward? She tried in a
- blind, hopeless way to do her duty, secretly rebelling against
- it all the while, for it seemed unjust that her few joys should
- be lessened, her burdens made heavier, and life get harder and
- harder as she toiled along. Some people seemed to get all sun-
- shine, and some all shadow. It was not fair, for she tried more
- than Amy to be good, but never got any reward, only disappoint-
- ment, trouble and hard work.
-
- Poor Jo, these were dark days to her, for something like
- despair came over her when she thought of spending all her life
- in that quiet house, devoted to humdrum cares, a few small plea-
- sures, and the duty that never seemed to grow any easier. "I
- can't do it. I wasn't meant for a life like this, and I know I
- shall break away and do something desperate if somebody doesn't
- come and help me," she said to herself, when her first efforts
- failed and she fell into the moody, miserable state of mind which
- often comes when strong wills have to yield to the inevitable.
-
- But someone did come and help her, though Jo did not recognize
- her good angels at once because they wore familiar shapes and used
- the simple spells best fitted to poor humanity. Often she started
- up at night, thinking Beth called her, and when the sight of the
- little empty bed made her cry with the bitter cry of unsubmissive
- sorrow, "Oh, Beth, come back! Come back!" she did not stretch out
- her yearning arms in vain. For, as quick to hear her sobbing as
- she had been to hear her sister's faintest whisper, her mother came
- to comfort her, not with words only, but the patient tenderness
- that soothes by a touch, tears that were mute reminders of a greater
- grief than Jo's, and broken whispers, more eloquent than prayers,
- because hopeful resignation went hand-in-hand with natural sorrow.
- Sacred moments, when heart talked to heart in the silence of the
- night, turning affliction to a blessing, which chastened grief and
- strengthned love. Feeling this, Jo's burden seemed easier to bear,
- duty grew sweeter, and life looked more endurable, seen from the
- safe shelter of her mother's arms.
-
- When aching heart was a little comforted, troubled mind like-
- wise found help, for one day she went to the study, and leaning
- over the good gray head lifted to welcome her with a tranquil smile,
- she said very humbly, "Father, talk to me as you did to Beth. I
- need it more than she did, for I'm all wrong."
-
- "My dear, nothing can comfort me like this," he answered, with
- a falter in his voice, and both arms round her, as if he too, needed
- help, and did not fear to ask for it.
-
- Then, sitting in Beth's little chair close beside him, Jo told
- her troubles, the resentful sorrow for her loss, the fruitless
- efforts that discouraged her, the want of faith that made life look
- so dark, and all the sad bewilderment which we call despair. She
- gave him entire confidence, he gave her the help she needed, and
- both found consolation in the act. For the time had come when they
- could talk together not only as father and daughter, but as man and
- woman, able and glad to serve each other with mutual sympathy as well
- as mutual love. Happy, thoughtful times there in the old study which
- Jo called `the church of one member', and from which she came with
- fresh courage, recovered cheerfulness, and a more submissive spirit.
- For the parents who had taught one child to meet death without fear,
- were trying now to teach another to accept life without despondency
- or distrust, and to use its beautiful opportunities with gratitude
- and power.
-
- Other helps had Jo--humble, wholesome duties and delights that
- would not be denied their part in serving her, and which she slowly
- learned to see and value. Brooms and dishcloths never could
- be as distasteful as they once had been, for Beth had presided
- over both, and something of her housewifely spirit seemed to
- linger around the little mop and the old brush, never thrown
- away. As she used them, Jo found herself humming the songs
- Beth used to hum, imitating Beth's orderly ways, and giving the
- little touches here and there that kept everything fresh and
- cozy, which was the first step toward making home happy, though
- she didn't know it till Hannah said with an approving squeeze
- of the hand . . .
-
- "You thoughtful creeter, you're determined we shan't miss
- that dear lamb ef you can help it. We don't say much, but we
- see it, and the Lord will bless you for't, see ef He don't."
-
- As they sat sewing together, Jo discovered how much improved
- her sister Meg was, how well she could talk, how much she knew
- about good, womanly impulses, thoughts, and feelings, how happy
- she was in husband and children, and how much they were all doing
- for each other.
-
- "Marriage is an excellent thing, after all. I wonder if I
- should blossom out half as well as you have, if I tried it?" said
- Jo, as she constructed a kite for Demi in the topsy-turvy nursery.
-
- "It's just what you need to bring out the tender womanly half
- of your nature, Jo. You are like a chestnut burr, prickly outside,
- but silky-soft within, and a sweet kernal, if one can only get at
- it. Love will make you show your heart one day, and then the rough
- burr will fall off."
-
- "Frost opens chestnut burrs, ma`am, and it takes a good shake
- to bring them down. Boys go nutting, and I don't care to be bagged
- by them," returned Jo, pasting away at the kite which no wind that
- blows would ever carry up, for Daisy had tied herself on as a bob.
-
- Meg laughed, for she was glad to see a glimmer of Jo's old
- spirit, but she felt it her duty to enforce her opinion by every
- argument in her power, and the sisterly chats were not wasted, es-
- pecially as two of Meg's most effective arguments were the babies,
- whom Jo loved tenderly. Grief is the best opener of some hearts,
- and Jo's was nearly ready for the bag. A little more sunshine to
- ripen the nut, then, not a boy's impatient shake, but a man's hand
- reached up to pick it gently from the burr, and find the kernal
- sound and sweet. If she suspected this, she would have shut up
- tight, and been more prickly than ever, fortunately she wasn't
- thinking about herself, so when the time came, down she dropped.
-
- Now, if she had been the heroine of a moral storybook, she
- ought at this period of her life to have become quite saintly,
- renounced the world, and gone about doing good in a mortified
- bonnet, with tracts in her pocket. But, you see, Jo wasn't a
- heroine, she was only a struggling human girl like hundreds of
- others, and she just acted out her nature, being sad, cross, list-
- less, or energetic, as the mood suggested. It's highly virtuous
- to say we'll be good, but we can't do it all at once, and it takes
- a long pull, a strong pull, and a pull all together before some
- of us even get our feet set in the right way. Jo had got so far,
- she was learning to do her duty, and to feel unhappy if she did
- not, but to do it cheerfully, ah, that was another thing! She
- had often said she wanted to do something splendid, no matter how
- hard, and now she had her wish, for what could be more beautiful
- than to devote her life to Father and Mother, trying to make home
- as happy to them as they had to her? And if difficulties were
- necessary to increase the splendor of the effort, what could be
- harder for a restless, ambitious girl than to give up her own
- hopes, plans, and desires, and cheerfully live for others?
-
- Providence had taken her at her word. Here was the task, not
- what she had expected, but better because self had no part in it.
- Now, could she do it? She decided that she would try, and in her
- first attempt she found the helps I have suggested. Still another
- was given her, and she took it, not as a reward, but as a comfort,
- as Christian took the refreshment afforded by the little arbor
- where he rested, as he climbed the hill called Difficulty.
-
- "Why don't you write? That always used to make you happy,"
- said her mother once, when the desponding fit over-shadowed Jo.
-
- "I've no heart to write, and if I had, nobody cares for my
- things."
-
- "We do. Write something for us, and never mind the rest of
- the world. Try it, dear. I'm sure it would do you good, and
- please us very much."
-
- "Don't believe I can." But Jo got out her desk and began to
- overhaul her half-finished manuscripts.
-
- An hour afterward her mother peeped in and there she was,
- scratching away, with her black pinafore on, and an absorbed ex-
- pression, which caused Mrs. March to smile and slip away, well
- pleased with the success of her suggestion. Jo never knew how it
- happened, but something got into that story that went straight to
- the hearts of those who read it, for when her family had laughed
- and cried over it, her father sent it, much against her will, to
- one of the popular magazines, and to her utter surprise, it was
- not only paid for, but others requested. Letters from several
- persons, whose praise was honor, followed the appearance of the
- little story, newspapers copied it, and strangers as well as friends,
- admired it. For a small thing it was a great success, and Jo was
- more astonished than when her novel was commended and condemned
- all at once.
-
- "I don't understand it. What can there be in a simple little
- story like that to make people praise it so?" she said, quite be-
- wildered.
-
- "There is truth in it, Jo, that's the secret. Humor and pathos
- make it alive, and you have found your style at last. You wrote
- with not thoughts of fame and money, and put your heart into it,
- my daughter. You have had the bitter, now comes the sweet. Do
- your best, and grow as happy as we are in your success."
-
- "If there is anything good or true in what I write, it isn't
- mine. I owe it all to you and Mother and Beth," said Jo, more
- touched by her father's words than by any amount of praise from
- the world.
-
- So taught by love and sorrow, Jo wrote her little stories,
- and sent them away to make friends for themselves and her, finding
- it a very charitable world to such humble wanderers, for they were
- kindly welcomed, and sent home comfortable tokens to their mother,
- like dutiful children whom good fortune overtakes.
-
- When Amy and Laurie wrote of their engagement, Mrs. March
- feared that Jo would find it difficult to rejoice over it, but
- her fears were soon set at rest, for thought Jo looked grave at
- first, she took it very quietly, and was full of hopes and plans
- for `the children' before she read the letter twice. It was a
- sort of written duet, wherein each glorified the other in lover-
- like fashion, very pleasant to read and satisfactory to think of,
- for no one had any objection to make.
-
- "You like it, Mother?" said Jo, as they laid down the closely
- written sheets and looked at one another.
-
- "Yes, I hoped it would be so, ever since Amy wrote that she
- had refused Fred. I felt sure then that something better than
- what you call the `mercenary spirit' had come over her, and a
- hint here and there in her letters made me suspect that love
- and Laurie would win the day."
-
- "How sharp you are, Marmee, and how silent! You never said
- a worked to me."
-
- "Mothers have need of sharp eyes and discreet tongues when
- they have girls to manage. I was half afraid to put the idea
- into your head, lest you should write and congratulate them be-
- fore the thing was settled."
-
- "I'm not the scatterbrain I was. You may trust me. I'm
- sober and sensible enough for anyone's confidante now."
-
- "So you are, my dear, and I should have made you mine,
- only I fancied it might pain you to learn that your Teddy loved
- someone else."
-
- "Now, Mother, did you really think I could be so silly and
- selfish, after I'd refused his love, when it was freshest, if not
- best?"
-
- "I knew you were sincere then, Jo, but lately I have thought
- that if he came back, and asked again, you might perhaps, feel like
- giving another answer. Forgive me, dear, I can't help seeing that
- you are very lonely, and sometimes there is a hungry look in your
- eyes that goes to my heart. So I fancied that your boy might fill
- the empty place if he tried now."
-
- "No, Mother, it is better as it ia, and I'm glad Amy has learned
- to love him. But you are right in one thing. I am lonely, and per-
- haps if Teddy had tried again, I might have said `Yes', not because
- I love him any more, but because I care more to be loved than when
- he went away."
-
- "I'm glad of that, Jo, for it shows that you are getting on.
- There are plenty to love you, so try to be satisfied with Father
- and Mother, sisters and brothers, friends and babies, till the
- best lover of all comes to give you your reward."
-
- "Mothers are the best lovers in the world, but I don't mind
- whispering to Marmee that I'd like to try all kinds. It's very
- curious, but the more I try to satisfy myself with all sorts of
- natural affections, the more I seem to want. I'd no idea hearts
- could take in so many. Mine is so elastic, it never seems full
- now, and I used to be quite contented with my family. I don't
- understand it."
-
- "I do." And Mrs. March smiled her wise smile, as Jo turned
- back the leaves to read what Amy said of Laurie.
-
- "It is so beautiful to be loved as Laurie loves me. He isn't
- sentimental, doesn't say much about it, but I see and feel it in
- all he says and does, and it makes me so happy and so humble that
- I don't seem to be the same girl I was. I never knew how good and
- generous and tender he was till now, for he lets me read his heart,
- and I find it full of noble impulses and hopes and purposes, and
- am so proud to know it's mine. He says he feels as if he `could
- make a prosperous voyage now with me aboard as mate, and lots of
- love for ballast'. I pray he may, and try to be all he believes
- me, for I love my gallant captain with all my heart and soul and
- might, and never will desert him, while God lets us be together.
- Oh, Mother, I never knew how much like heaven this world could be,
- when two people love and live for one another!"
-
- "And that's our cool, reserved, and worldly Amy! Truly, love
- does work miracles. How very, very happy they must be!" And Jo
- laid the rustling sheets together with a careful hand, as one
- might shut the covers of a lovely romance, which holds the reader
- fast till the end comes, and he finds himself alone in the work-
- aday world again.
-
- By-and-by Jo roamed away upstairs, for it was rainy, and she
- could not walk. A restless spirit possessed her, and the old
- feeling came again, not bitter as it once was, but a sorrowfully
- patient wonder why one sister should have all she asked, the other
- nothing. It was not true, she knew that and tried to put it away,
- but the natural craving for affection was strong, and Amy's hap-
- piness woke the hungry longing for someone to `love with heart
- and soul, and cling to while God let them be together'.
-
- Up in the garret, where Jo's unquiet wanderings ended stood
- four little wooden chests in a row, each marked with its owners
- name, and each filled with relics of the childhood and girlhood
- ended now for all. Jo glanced into them, and when she came to
- her own, leaned her chin on the edge, and stared absently at the
- chaotic collection, till a bundle of old exercise books caught
- her eye. She drew them out, turned them over, and relived that
- pleasant winter at kind Mrs. Kirke's. She had smiled at first,
- then she looked thoughtful, next sad, and when she came to a
- little message written in the Professor's hand, her lips began
- to tremble, the books slid out of her lap, and she sat looking
- at the friendly words, as they took a new meaning, and touched
- a tender spot in her heart.
-
- "Wait for me, my friend. I may be a little late, but I shall
- surely come."
-
- "Oh, if he only would! So kine, so good, so patient with me
- always, my dear old Fritz. I didn't value him half enough when I
- had him, but now how I should love to see him, for everyone seems
- going away from me, and I'm all alone."
-
- And holding the little paper fast, as if it were a promise
- yet to be fulfilled, Jo laid her head down on a comfortable rag
- bag, and cried, as if in opposition to the rain pattering on the
- roof.
-
- Was it all self-pity, loneliness, or low spirits? Or was it
- the waking up of a sentiment which had bided its time as patiently
- as its inspirer? Who shall say?
-
-
- CHAPTER FORTY-THREE
-
- Jo was alone in the twilight, lying on the old sofa, looking
- at the fire, and thinking. It was her favorite way of spending
- the hour of dusk. No one disturbed her, and she used to lie
- there on Beth's little red pillow, planning stories, dreaming
- dreams, or thinking tender thoughts of the sister who never seemed
- far away. Her face looked tired, grave, and rather sad, for to-
- morrow was her birthday, and she was thinking how fast the years
- went by, how old she was getting, and how little she seemed to
- have accomplished. Almost twenty-five, and nothing to show for
- it. Jo was mistaken in that. There was a good deal to show,
- and by-and-by she saw, and was grateful for it.
-
- "An old maid, that's what I'm to be. A literary spinster,
- with a pen for a spouse, a family of stories for children, and
- twenty years hence a morsel of fame, perhaps, when, like poor
- Johnson, I'm old and can't enjoy it, solitary, and can't share
- it, independent, and don't need it. Well, I needn't be a sour
- saint nor a selfish sinner, and, I dare say, old maids are very
- comfortable when they get used to it, but . . ." And there Jo
- sighed, as if the prospect was not inviting.
-
- It seldom is, at first, and thirty seems the end of all things
- to five-and-twenty. But it's not as bad as it looks, and one can
- get on quite happily if one has something in one's self to fall
- back upon. At twenty-five, girls begin to talk about being old
- maids, but secretly resolve that they never will be. At thirty
- they say nothing about it, but quietly accept the fact, and if
- sensible, console themselves by remembering that they have twenty
- more useful, happy years, in which they may be learning to grow
- old gracefully. Don't laugh at the spinsters, dear girls, for
- often very tender, tragic romances are hidden away in the hearts
- that beat so quietly under the sober gowns, and many silent sac-
- rifices of youth, health, ambition, love itself, make the faded
- faces beautiful in God's sight. Even the sad, sour sisters
- should be kindly dealt with, because they have missed the sweet-
- est part of life, if for no other reason. And looking at them
- with compassion, not contempt, girls in their bloom should re-
- member that they too may miss the blossom time. That rosy cheeks
- don't last forever, that silver threads will come in the bonnie
- brown hair, and that, by-and-by, kindness and respect will be as
- sweet as love and admiration now.
-
- Gentlemen, which means boys, be courteous to the old maids,
- no matter how poor and plain and prim, for the only chivalry
- worth having is that which is the readiest to pay deference to
- the old, protect the feeble, and serve womankind, regardless of
- rank, age, or color. Just recollect the good aunts who have not
- only lectured and fussed, but nursed and petted, too often with-
- out thanks, the scrapes they have helped you out of, the tips
- they have given you from their small store, the stitches the
- patient old fingers have set for you, the steps the willing old
- feet have taken, and gratefully pay the dear old ladies the little
- attentions that women love to receive as long as they live. The
- bright-eyed girls are quick to see such traits, and will like you
- all the better for them, and if death, almost the only power that
- can part mother and son, should rob you of yours, you will be sure
- to find a tender welcome and maternal cherishing from some Aunt
- Priscilla, who has kept the warmest corner of her lonely old heart
- for `the best nevvy in the world'.
-
- Jo must have fallen asleep (as I dare say my reader has dur-
- ing this little homily), for suddenly Laurie's ghost seemed to
- stand before her, a substantial, lifelike ghost, leaning over her
- with the very look he used to wear when he felt a good deal and
- didn't like to show it. But, like Jenny in the ballad . . .
-
- She could not think it he,
-
- and lay staring up at him in startled silence, till he stooped
- and kissed her. Then she knew him, and flew up, crying joyfully . ..
-
- "Oh my Teddy! Oh my Teddy!"
-
- "Dear Jo, you are glad to see me, then?"
-
- "Glad! My blessed boy, words can't express my gladness.
- Where's Amy?"
-
- "Your mother has got her down at Meg's. We stopped there by
- the way, and there was no getting my wife out of their clutches."
-
- "Your what?" cried Jo, for Laurie uttered those two words
- with an unconscious pride and satisfaction which betrayed him.
-
- "Oh, the dickens! Now I've done it." And he looked so
- guilty that Jo was down on him like a flash.
-
- "You've gone and got married!"
-
- "Yes, please, but I never will again." And he went down
- upon his knees, with a penitent clasping of hands, and a face
- full of mischief, mirth, and triumph.
-
- "Actually married?"
-
- "Very much so, thank you."
-
- "Mercy on us. What dreadful thing will you do next?" And
- Jo fell into her seat with a gasp.
-
- "A characteristic, but not exactly complimentary, congrat-
- ulation," returned Laurie, still in an abject attitude, but beam-
- ing with satisfaction.
-
- "What can you expect, when you take one's breath away, creep-
- ing in like a burglar, and letting cats out of bags like that? Get
- up, you ridiculous boy, and tell me all about it."
-
- "Not a word, unless you let me come in my old place, and
- promise not to barricade."
-
- Jo laughed at that as she had not done for many a long day,
- and patted the sofa invitingly, as she said in a cordial tone,
- "The old pillow is up garret, and we don't need it now. So, come
- and fess, Teddy."
-
- "How good it sounds to hear you say `Teddy'! No one ever calls
- me that but you." And Laurie sat down with an air of great content.
-
- "What does Amy call you?"
-
- "My lord."
-
- "That's like her. Well, you look it." And Jo's eye plainly
- betrayed that she found her boy comelier than ever.
-
- The pillow was gone, but there was a barricade, nevertheless,
- a natural one, raised by time absence, and change of heart. Both
- felt it, and for a minute looked at one another as if that invis-
- ible barrier cast a little shadow over them. It was gone directly
- however, for Laurie said, with a vain attempt at dignity . . .
-
- "Don't I look like a married man and the head of a family?"
-
- "Not a bit, and you never will. You've grown bigger and
- bonnier, but you are the same scapegrace as ever."
-
- "Now really, Jo, you ought to treat me with more respect,"
- began Laurie, who enjoyed it all immensely.
-
- "How can I, when the mere idea of you, married and settled,
- is so irresistibly funny that I can't keep sober!" answered Jo,
- smiling all over her face, so infectiously that they had another
- laugh, and then settled down for a good talk, quite in the plea-
- sant old fashion.
-
- "It's no use your going out in the cold to get Amy, for
- they are all coming up presently. I couldn't wait. I wanted to
- be the one to tell you the grand surprise, and have `first skim'
- as we used to say when we squabbled about the cream."
-
- "Of course you did, and spoiled your story by beginning at
- the wrong end. Now, start right, and tell me how it all happened.
- I'm pining to know."
-
- "Well, I did it to please Amy," began Laurie,with a twinkle
- that made Jo exclaim . . .
-
- "Fib number one. Amy did it to please you. Go on, and tell
- the truth, if you can, sir."
-
- "Now she's beginning to marm it. Isn't it jolly to hear her?"
- said Laurie to the fire, and the fire glowed and sparkled as if it
- quite agreed. "It's all the same, you know, she and I being one.
- We planned to come home with the Carrols, a month or more ago, but
- they suddenly changed their minds, and decided to pass another
- winter in Paris. But Grandpa wanted to come home. He went to please
- me, and I couldn't let him go along, neither could I leave Amy, and
- Mrs. Carrol had got English notions about chaperons and such non-
- sense, and wouldn't let Amy come with us. So I just settled the
- difficulty by saying, `Let's be married, and then we can do as we
- like'."
-
- "Of course you did. You always have things to suit you."
-
- "Not always." And something in Laurie's voice made Jo say
- hastily . . .
-
- "How did you ever get Aunt to agree?"
-
- "It was hard work, but between us, we talked her over, for we
- had heaps of good reasons on our side. There wasn't time to write
- and ask leave, but you all liked it, had consented to it by-and-by,
- and it was only `taking time by the fetlock', as my wife says."
-
- "Aren't we proud of those two word, and don't we like to say
- them?" interrupted Jo, addressing the fire in her turn, and watch-
- ing with delight the happy light it seemed to kindle in the eyes
- that had been so tragically gloomy when she saw them last.
-
- "A trifle, perhaps, she's such a captivating little woman I
- can't help being proud of her. Well, then Uncle and Aunt were
- there to play propriety. We were so absorbed in one another we
- were of no mortal use apart, and that charming arrangement would
- make everything easy all round, so we did it."
-
- "When, where, how?" asked Jo, in a fever of feminine interest
- and curiosity, for she could not realize it a particle.
-
- "Six weeks ago, at the American consul's, in Paris, a very
- quiet wedding of course, for even in our happiness we didn't for-
- get dear little Beth."
-
- Jo put her hand in his as he said that, and Laurie gently
- smoothed the little red pillow, which he remembered well.
-
- "Why didn't you let us know afterward?" asked Jo, in a
- quieter tone, when they had sat quite still a minute.
-
- "We wanted to surprise you. We thought we were coming
- directly home, at first, but the dear old gentleman, as soon as
- we were married, found he couldn't be ready under a month, at
- least, and sent us off to spend our honeymoon wherever we liked.
- Amy had once called Valrosa a regular honeymoon home, so we went
- there, and were as happy as people are but once in their lives.
- My faith! Wasn't it love among the roses!"
-
- Laurie seemed to forget Jo for a minute, and Jo was glad of
- it, for the fact that he told her these things so freely and so
- naturally assured her that he had quite forgiven and forgotten.
- She tried to draw away her hand, but as if he guessed the thought
- that prompted the half-involuntary impulse, Laurie held it fast,
- and said, with a manly gravity she had never seen in him before . . .
-
- "Jo, dear, I want to say one thing, and then we'll put it by
- forever. As I told you in my letter when I wrote that Amy had
- been so kind to me, I never shall stop loving you, but the love
- is altered, and I have learned to see that it is better as it is.
- Amy and you changed places in my heart, that's all. I think it
- was meant to be so, and would have come about naturally, if I had
- waited, as you tried to make me, but I never could be patient, and
- so I got a heartache. I was a boy then, headstrong and violent,
- and it took a hard lesson to show me my mistake. For it was one,
- Jo, as you said, and I found it out, after making a fool of myself.
- Upon my word, I was so tumbled up in my mind, at one time, that I
- didn't know which I loved best, you or Amy, and tried to love you
- both alike. But I couldn't, and when I saw her in Switzerland,
- everything seemed to clear up all at once. You both got into
- your right places, and I felt sure that it was well off with the
- old love before it was on with the new, that I could honestly
- share my heart between sister Jo and wife Amy, and love them dearly.
- Will you believe it, and go back to the happy old times when we
- first knew one another?"
-
- "I'll believe it, with all my heart, but, Teddy, we never can
- be boy and girl again. The happy old times can't come back, and we
- mustn't expect it. We are man and woman now, with sober work to do,
- for playtime is over, and we must give up frolicking. I'm sure you
- feel this. I see the change in you, and you'll find it in me. I
- shall miss my boy, but I shall love the man as much, and admire
- him more, because he means to be what I hoped he would. We can't
- be little playmates any longer, but we will be brother and sister,
- to love and help one another all our lives, won't we, Laurie?"
-
- He did not say a word, but took the hand she offered him, and
- laid his face down on it for a minute, feeling that out of the
- grave of a boyish passion, there had risen a beautiful, strong
- friendship to bless them both. Presently Jo said cheerfully, for
- she didn't the coming home to be a sad one, "I can't make it true
- that you children are really married and going to set up house-
- keeping. Why, it seems only yesterday that I was buttoning Amy's
- pinafore, and pulling your hair when you teased. Mercy me, how
- time does fly!"
-
- "As one of the children is older than yourself, you needn't
- talk so like a grandma. I flatter myself I'm a `gentleman growed'
- as Peggotty said of David, and when you see Amy, you'll find her
- rather a precocious infant," said Laurie, looking amused at her
- maternal air.
-
- "You may be a little older in years, but I'm ever so much
- older in feeling, Teddy. Women always are, and this last year has
- been such a hard one that I feel forty."
-
- "Poor Jo! We left you to bear it alone, while we went plea-
- suring. You are older. Here's a line, and there's another. Unless
- you smile, your eyes look sad, and when I touched the cushion, just
- now, I found a tear on it. You've had a great deal to bear, and
- had to bear it all alone. What a selfish beast I've been!" And
- Laurie pulled his own hair, with a remorseful look.
-
- But Jo only turned over the traitorous pillow, and answered,
- in a tone which she tried to make more cheerful, "No, I had Father
- and Mother to help me, and the dear babies to comfort me, and the
- thought that you and Amy were safe and happy, to make the troubles
- here easier to bear. I am lonely, sometimes, but I dare say it's
- good for me, and . . ."
-
- "You never shall be again," broke in Laurie, putting his arm
- about her, as if to fence out every human ill. "Amy and I can't
- get on without you, so you must come and teach `the children' to
- keep house, and go halves in everything, just as we used to do,
- and let us pet you, and all be blissfully happy and friendly
- together."
-
- "If I shouldn't be in the way, it would be very pleasant. I
- begin to feel quite young already, for somehow all my troubles
- seemed to fly away when you came. You always were a comfort, Teddy."
- And Jo leaned her head on his shoulder, just as she did years ago,
- when Beth lay ill and Laurie told her to hold on to him.
-
- He looked down at her, wondering if she remembered the time,
- but Jo was smiling to herself, as if in truth her troubles had
- all vanished at his coming.
-
- "You are the same Jo still, dropping tears about one minute,
- and laughing the next. You look a little wicked now. What is it,
- Grandma?"
-
- "I was wondering how you and Amy get on together."
-
- "Like angels!"
-
- "Yes, of course, but which rules?"
-
- "I don't mind telling you that she does now, at least I let
- her think so, it pleases her, you know. By-and-by we shall take
- turns, for marriage, they say, halves one's rights and doubles
- one's duties."
-
- "You'll go on as you begin, and Amy will rule you all the
- days of your life."
-
- "Well, she does it so imperceptibly that I don't think I shall
- mind much. She is the sort of woman who knows how to rule well. In
- fact, I rather like it, for she winds one round her finger as softly
- and prettily as a skein of silk, and makes you feel as if she was
- doing you a favor all the while."
-
- "That ever I should live to see you a henpecked husband and
- enjoying it!" cried JO, with uplifted hands.
-
- It was good to see Laurie square his shoulders, and smile with
- masculine scorn at that insinuation, as he replied, with his "high
- and mighty" air, "Amy is too well-bred for that, and I am not the
- sort of man to submit to it. My wife and I respect ourselves and
- one another too much ever to tyrannize or quarrel."
-
- Jo like that, and thought the new dignity very becoming, but
- the boy seemed changing very fast into the man, and regret mingled
- with her pleasure.
-
- "I am sure of that. Amy and you never did quarrel as we used
- to. She is the sun and I the wind, in the fable, and the sun man-
- aged the man best, you remember."
-
- "She can blow him up as well as shine on him," laughed Laurie.
- "such a lecture as I got at Nice! I give you my word it was a deal
- worse than any or your scoldings, a regular rouser. I'll tell you
- all about it sometime, she never will, because after telling me that
- she despised and was ashamed of me, she lost her heart to the de-
- spicable party and married the good-for-nothing."
-
- "What baseness! Well, if she abuses you, come to me, and I'll
- defend you."
-
- "I look as if I needed it, don't I?" said Laurie, getting up
- and striking an attitude which suddenly changed from the imposing
- to the rapturous, as Amy's voice was heard calling, "Where is she?
- Where's my dear old Jo?"
-
- In trooped the whole family, and everyone was hugged and kissed
- all over again, and after several vain attempts, the three wanderers
- were set down to be looked at and exulted over. Mr. Laurence, hale
- and hearty as ever, was quite as much improved as the others by his
- foreign tour, for the crustiness seemed to be nearly gone, and the
- old-fashioned courtliness had received a polish which made it kind-
- lier than ever. It was good to see him beam at `my children', as
- he called the young pair. It was better still to see Amy pay him
- the daughterly duty and affection which completely won his old heart,
- and best of all, to watch Laurie revolve about the two, as if never
- tired of enjoying the pretty picture they made.
-
- The minute she put her eyes upon Amy, Meg became conscious that
- her own dress hadn't a Parisian air, that young Mrs. Mofffat would be
- entirely eclipsed by young Mrs. Laurence, and that `her ladyship' was
- altogether a most elegant and graceful woman. Jo thought, as she
- watched the pair, "How well they look together! I was right, and
- Laurie has found the beautiful, accomplished girl who will become
- his home better than clumsy old Jo, and be a pride, not a torment to
- him." Mrs. March and her husband smiled and nodded at each other
- with happy faces, for they saw that their youngest had done well,
- not only in worldly things,but the better wealth of love, confid-
- ence, and happiness.
-
- For Amy's face was full of the soft brightness which betokens
- a peaceful heart, her voice had a new tenderness in it, and the cool,
- prim carriage was changed to a gentle dignity, both womanly and win-
- ning. No little affectations marred it, and the cordial sweetness
- of her manner was more charming than the new beauty or the old grace,
- for it stamped her at once with the unmistakable sign of the true
- gentlewoman she had hoped to become.
-
- "Love has done much for our little girl," said her mother softly.
-
- "She has had a good example before her all her life, my dear,"
- Mr. March whispered back, with a loving look at the worn face and gray
- head beside him.
-
- Daisy found it impossible to keep her eyes off her `pitty aunty',
- but attached herself like a lap dog to the wonderful chatelaine full
- of delightful charms. Demi paused to consider the new relationship
- before he compromised himself by the rash acceptance of a bribe, which
- took the tempting form of a family of wooden bears from Berne. A flank
- movement produced an unconditional surrender, however, for Laurie knew
- where to have him.
-
- "Young man, when I first had the honor of making your acquain-
- tance you hit me in the face. Now I demand the satisfaction of a
- gentleman," and with that the tall uncle proceeded to toss and tousle
- the small nephew in a way that damaged his philosophical dignity as
- much as it delighted his boyish soul.
-
- "Blest if she ain't in silk from head to foot? Ain't it a re-
- lishin' sight to see her settin' there as fine as a fiddle, anch a happy
- procession as filed away into the little dining room! Mr. March
- proudly escorted Mrs. Laurence. Mrs. March as proudly leaned on
- the arm of `my son'. The old gentleman took Jo, with a whispered,
- "You must be my girl now," and a glance at the empty corner by the
- fire, that made Jo whisper back, "I'll try to fill her place, sir.
-
- The twins pranced behind, feeling that the millennium was at
- hand, for everyone was so busy with the newcomers that they were
- left to revel at their own sweet will, and you may be sure they
- made the most of the opportunity. Didn't they steal sips of tea,
- stuff gingerbread ad libitum, get a hot biscuit apiece, and as a
- crowning trespass, didn't they each whisk a captivating little tart
- into their tiny pockets, there to stick and crumble treacherously,
- teaching them that both human nature and a pastry are frail? Bur-
- dened with the guilty consciousness of the sequestered tarts, and
- fearing that Dodo's sharp eyes would pierce the thin disguise of
- cambric and merino which hid their booty, the little sinners
- attached themselves to `Dranpa', who hadn't his spectacles on. Amy,
- who was handed about like refreshments, returned to the parlor on
- Father Laurence's arm. The others paired off as before, and this
- arrangement left Jo companionless. She did not mind it at the
- minute, for she lingered to answer Hannah's eager inquiry.
-
- "Will Miss Amy ride in her coop (coupe), and use all them
- lovely silver dishes that's stored away over yander?"
-
- "Shouldn't wonder if she drove six white horses, ate off gold
- plate, and wore diamonds and point lace every day. Teddy thinks
- nothing too good for her," returned Jo with infinite satisfaction.
-
- "No more there is! Will you have hash or fishballs for break-
- fast?" asked Hannah, who wisely mingled poetry and prose.
-
- "I don't care." And Jo shut the door, feeling that food was an
- uncongenial topic just then. She stood a minute looking at the
- party vanishing above, and as Demi's short plaid legs toiled up the
- last stair, a sudden sense of lonliness came over her so strongly
- that she looked about her with dim eyes, as if to find something to
- lean upon, for even Teddy had deserted her. If she had known what
- birthday gift was coming every minute nearer and nearer, she would
- not have said to herself, "I'll weep a little weep when I go to bed.
- It won't do to be dismal now." Then she drew her hand over her
- eyes, for one of her boyish habits was never to know where her hand-
- kerchief was, and had just managed to call up a smile when there
- came a knock at the porch door.
-
- She opened with hospitable haste, and started as if another
- ghost had come to surprise her, for there stood a tall bearded
- gentleman, beaming on her from the darkness like a midnight sun.
-
- "Oh, Mr. Bhaer, I am so glad to see you!" cried Jo, with a
- clutch, as if she feared the night would swallow him up before
- she could get him in.
-
- "And I to see Miss Marsch, but no, you haf a party," and the
- Professor paused as the sound of voices and the tap of dancing
- feet came down to them.
-
- "No, we haven't, only the family. My sister and friends
- have just come home, and we are all very happy. Come in, and
- make one of us."
-
- Though a very social man, I think Mr. Bhaer would have gone
- decorously away, and come again another day, but how could he,
- when Jo shut the door behind him, and bereft him of his hat?
- Perhaps her face had something to do with it, for she forgot
- to hide her joy at seeing him, and showed it with a frankness
- that proved irresistible to the solitary man, whose welcome far
- exceeded his boldest hopes.
-
- "If I shall not be Monsieur de Trop, I will so gladly see
- them all. You haf been ill, my friend?"
-
- He put the question abruptly, for, as Jo hung up his coat,
- the light fell on her face, and he saw a change in it.
-
- "Not ill, but tired and sorrowful. We have had trouble
- since I saw you last."
-
- "Ah, yes, I know. My heart was sore for you when I heard
- that," And he shook hands again, with such a sympathetic face
- that Jo felt as if no comfort could equal the look of the kind
- eyes, the grasp of the big, warm hand.
-
- "Father, Mother, this is my friend, Professor Bhaer," she
- said, with a face and tone of such irrepressible pride and
- pleasure that she might as well have blown a trumpet and opened
- the door with a flourish.
-
- If the stranger had any doubts about his reception, they
- were set at rest in a minute by the cordial welcome he received.
- Everyone greeted him kindly, for Jo's sake at first, but very
- soon they liked him for his own. They could not help it, for
- he carried the talisman that opens all hearts, and these simple
- people warmed to him at once, feeling even the more friendly
- because he was poor. For poverty enriches those who live above
- it, and is a sure passport to truly hospitable spirits. Mr.
- Bhaer sat looking about him with the air of a traveler who
- knocks at a strange door, and when it opens, finds himself at
- home. The children went to him like bees to a honeypot, and
- establishing themselves on each knee, proceeded to captivate him
- by rifling his pockets, pulling his beard, and investigating his
- watch, with juvenile audacity. The women telegraphed their
- approval to one another, and Mr. March, feeling that he had got
- a kindred spirit, opened his choicest stores for his guest's
- benefit, while silent John listened and enjoyed the talk, but
- said not a word, and Mr. Laurence found it impossible to go to
- sleep.
-
- If Jo had not been otherwise engaged, Laurie's behavior
- would have amused her, for a faint twinge, not of jealousy, but
- something like suspicion, caused that gentleman to stand aloof
- at first, and observe the newcomer with brotherly circumspection.
- But it did not last long. He got interested in spite of himself,
- and before he knew it, was drawn into the circle. For Mr. Bhaer
- talked well in this genial atmosphere, and did himself justice.
- He seldom spoke to Laurie, but he looked at him often, and a
- shadow would pass across his face, as if regretting his own lost
- youth, as he watched the young man in his prime. Then his eyes
- would turn to Jo so wistfully that she would have surely answered
- the mute inquiry if she had seen it. But Jo had her own eyes to
- take care of, and feeling that they could not be trusted, she
- prudently kept them on the little sock she was knitting, like a
- model maiden aunt.
-
- A stealthy glance now and then refreshed her like sips of
- fresh water after a dusty walk, for the sidelong peeps showed
- her several propitious omens. Mr. Bhaer's face had lost the
- absent-minded expression, and looked all alive with interest in
- the present moment, actually young and handsome, she thought,
- forgetting to compare him with Laurie, as she usually did strange
- men, to their great detriment. Then he seemed quite inspired,
- though the burial customs of the ancients, to which the conver-
- sation had strayed, might not be considered an exhilarating
- topic. Jo quite glowed with triumph when Teddy got quenched in
- an argument, and thought to herself, as she watched her father's
- absorbed face, "How he would enjoy having such a man as my Pro-
- fessor to talk with every day!" Lastly, Mr. Bhaer was dressed
- in a new suit of black, which made him look more like a gentleman
- than ever. His bushy hair had been cut and smoothly brushed, but
- didn't stay in order long, for in exciting moments, he rumpled
- it up in the droll way he used to do, and Jo liked it rampantly
- erect better than flat, because she thought it gave his fine
- forehead a Jove-like aspect. Poor Jo, how she did glorify that
- plain man, as she sat knitting away so quietly, yet letting
- nothing escape her, not even the fact that Mr. Bhaer actually
- had gold sleeve-buttons in his immaculate wristbands.
-
- "Dear old fellow! He couldn't have got himself up with
- more care if he'd been going a-wooing," said Jo to herself, and
- then a sudden thought born of the words made her blush so dread-
- fully that she had to drop her ball, and go down after it to
- hide her face.
-
- The maneuver did not succeed as well as she expected, how-
- ever, for though just in the act of setting fire to a funeral
- pyre, the Professor dropped his torch, metaphorically speaking,
- and made a dive after the little blue ball. Of course they
- bumped their heads smartly together, saw stars, and both came
- up flushed and laughing, without the ball, to resume their seats,
- wishing they had not left them.
-
- Nobody knew where the evening went to, for Hannah skillfully
- abstracted the babies at an early hour, nodding like two rosy
- poppies, and Mr. Laurence went home to rest. The others sat
- round the fire, talking away, utterly regardless of the lapse
- of time, till Meg, whose maternal was impressed with a firm con-
- viction that Daisy had tumbled out of be, and Demi set his night-
- gown afire studying the structure of matches, made a move to go.
-
- "We must have our sing, in the good old way, for we are all
- together again once more," said Jo, feeling that a good shout
- would be a safe and pleasant vent for the jubilant emotions of
- her soul.
-
- They were not all there. But no one found the words thougt-
- less or untrue, for Beth still seemed among them, a peaceful
- presence, invisible, but dearer than ever, since death could not
- break the household league that love made disoluble. The little
- chair stood in its old place. The tidy basket, with the bit of
- work she left unfinished when the needle grew `so heavy', was
- still on its accustomed shelf. The beloved instrument, seldom
- touched now had not been moved, and above it Beth's face, serene
- and smiling, as in the early days, looked down upon them, seeming
- to say, "Be happy. I am here."
-
- "Play something, Amy. Let them hear how much you have im-
- proved," said Laurie, with pardonable pride in his promising
- pupil.
-
- But Amy whispered, with full eyes, as she twirled the faded
- stool, "Not tonight, dear. I can't show off tonight."
-
- But she did show something better than brilliancy or skill,
- for she sang Beth's songs with a tender music in her voice which
- the best master could not have taught, and touched the listener's
- hearts with a sweeter power than any other inspiration could have
- given her. The room was very still, when the clear voice failed
- suddenly at the last line of Beth's favorite hymn. It was hard
- to say . . .
-
- Earth hath no sorrow that heaven cannot heal;
-
- and Amy leaned against her husband, who stood behind her, feeling
- that her welcome home was not quite perfect without Beth's kiss.
-
- "Now, we must finish with Mignon's song, for Mr. Bhaer sings
- that," said Jo, before the pause grew painful. And Mr. Bhaer
- cleared his throat with a gratified "Hem!" as he stepped into the
- corner where Jo stood, saying . . .
-
- "You will sing with me? We go excellently well together."
-
- A pleasing fiction, by the way, for Jo had no more idea of
- music than a grasshopper. But she would have consented if he had
- proposed to sing a whole opera, and warbled away, blissfully re-
- gardless of time and tune. It didn't much matter, for Mr. Bhaer
- sang like a true German, heartily and well, and Jo soon subsided
- into a subdued hum, that she might listen to the mellow voice that
- seemed to sing for her alone.
-
- Know'st thou the land where the citron blooms,
-
- used to be the Professor's favorite line, for `das land' meant
- Germany to him, but now he seemed to dwell, with peculiar warmth
- and melody, upon the words . . .
-
- There, oh there, might I with thee,
- O, my beloved, go
-
- and one listener was so thrilled by the tender invitation that she
- longed to say she did know the land, and would joyfully depart
- thither whenever he liked
-
- The song was considered a great success, and the singer retired
- covered with laurels. But a few minutes afterward, he forgot his
- manners entirely, and stared at Amy putting on her bonnet, for she
- had been introduced simply as `my sister', and on one had called
- her by her new name since her came. He forgot himself still fur-
- ther when Laurie said, in his most gracious manner, at parting . . .
-
- "My wife and I are very glad to meet you, sir. Please remem-
- ber that there is always a welcome waiting for you over the way."
-
- Then the Professor thanked him so heartily, and looked so
- suddenly illuminated with satisfaction, that Laurie thought him
- the most delightfully demonstrative old fellow he ever met.
-
- "I too shall go, but I shall gladly come again, if you will
- gif me leave, dear madame, for a little business in the city will
- keep me here some days."
-
- He spoke to Mrs. March, but he looked at Jo, and the mother's
- voice gave as cordial an assent as did the daughter's eyes, for
- Mrs. March was not so blind to her children's interest as Mrs.
- Moffat supposed.
-
- "I suspect that is a wise man," remarked Mr. March, with
- placid satisfaction, from the hearthrug, after the last guest had
- gone.
-
- "I know he is a good one," added Mrs. March, with decided
- approval, as she wound up the clock.
-
- "I thought you'd like him," was all Jo said, as she slipped
- away to her bed.
-
- She wondered what the business was that brought Mr. Bhaer to
- the city, and finally decided that he had been appointed to some
- great honor, somewhere, but had been too modest to mention the
- fact. If she had seen his face when, safe in his own room, he
- looked at the picture of a severe and rigid young lady, with a
- good deal of hair, who appeared to be gazing darkly into futurity,
- it might have thrown some light upon the subject, especially when
- he turned off the gas, and kissed the picture in the dark.
-
-
- CHAPTER FORTY-FOUR
-
- "Please, Madam Mother, could you lend me my wife for half
- an hour? The luggage has come, and I've been making hay of
- Amy's Paris finery, trying to find some things I want," said
- Laurie, coming in the next day to find Mrs. Laurence sitting
- in her mother's lap, as if being made `the baby' again.
-
- "Certainly. Go, dear, I forgot that you have any home but
- this." And Mrs. March pressed the white hand that wore the wed-
- ding ring, as if asking pardon for her maternal covetousness.
-
- "I shouldn't have come over if I could have helped it, but
- I can't get on without my little woman any more than a . . ."
-
- "Weathercock can without the wind," suggested Jo, as he
- paused for a simile. Jo had grown quite her own saucy self
- again since Teddy came home.
-
- "Exactly, for Amy keeps me pointing due west most of the
- time, with only an occasional whiffle round to the south, and
- I haven't had an easterly spell since I was married. Don't know
- anything about the north, but am altogether salubrious and balmy,
- hey, my lady?"
-
- "Lovely weather so far. I don't know how long it will last,
- but I'm not afraid of storms, for I'm learning how to sail my
- ship. Come home, dear, and I'll find your bootjack. I suppose
- that's what you are rummaging after among my things. Men are so
- helpless, Mother," said Amy, with a matronly air, which delighted
- her husband.
-
- "What are you going to do with yourselves after you get set-
- tled?" asked Jo, buttoning Amy's cloak as she used to button her
- pinafores.
-
- "We have our plans. We don't mean to say much about them
- yet, because we are such very new brooms, but we don't intend to
- be idle. I'm going into business with a devotion that shall de-
- light Grandfather, and prove to him that I'm not spoiled. I need
- something of the sort to keep me steady. I'm tired of dawdling,
- and mean to work like a man."
-
- "And Amy, what is she going to do?" asked Mrs. March, well
- pleased at Laurie's decision and the energy with which he spoke.
-
- "After doing the civil all round, and airing our best bonnet,
- we shall astonish you by the elegant hospitalities of our mansion,
- the brilliant society we shall draw about us, and the beneficial
- influence we shall exert over the world at large. That's about
- it, isn't it, Madame Recamier?" asked Laurie with a quizzical
- look at Amy.
-
- "Time will show. Come away, Impertinence, and don't shock
- my family by calling me names before their faces," answered Amy,
- resolving that there should be a home with a good wife in it
- before she set up a salon as a queen of society.
-
- "How happy those children seem together!" observed Mr. March,
- finding it difficult to become absorbed in his Aristotle after
- the young couple had gone.
-
- "Yes, and I think it will last," added Mrs. March, with the
- restful expression of a pilot who has brought a ship safely into
- port.
-
- "I know it will. Happy Amy!" And Jo sighed, then smiled
- brightly as Professor Bhaer opened the gate with an impatient
- push.
-
- Later in the evening, when his mind had been set at rest
- about the bootjack, Laurie said suddenly to his wife, "Mrs.
- Laurence."
-
- "My Lord!"
-
- "That man intends to marry our Jo!"
-
- "I hope so, don't you, dear?"
-
- "Well, my love, I consider him a trump, in the fullest sense
- of that expressive word, but I do wish he was a little younger
- and a good deal richer."
-
- "Now, Laurie, don't be too fastidious and worldly-minded.
- If they love one another it doesn't matter a particle how old
- they are nor how poor. Women never should marry for money . . ."
- Amy caught herself up short as the words escaped her, and looked
- at her husband, who replied, with malicious gravity . . .
-
- "Certainly not, though you do hear charming girls say that
- they intend to do it sometimes. If my memory serves me, you
- once thought it your duty to make a rich match. That accounts,
- perhaps, for your marrying a good-for-nothing like me."
-
- "Oh, my dearest boy, don't, don't say that! I forgot you
- were rich when I said `Yes'. I'd have married you if you hadn't
- a penny, and I sometimes wish you were poor that I might show
- how much I love you." And Amy, who was very dignified in public
- and very fond in private, gave convincing proofs of the truth of
- her words.
-
- "You don't really think I am such a mercenary creature as
- I tried to be once, do you? It would break my heart if you
- didn't believe that I'd gladly pull in the same boat with you,
- even if you had to get your living by rowing on the lake."2
-
- "Am I an idiot and a brute? How could I think so, when
- you refused a richer man for me, and won't let me give you half
- I want to now, when I have the right? Girls do it every day,
- poor things, and are taught to think it is their only salvation,
- but you had better lessons, and though I trembled for you at
- one time, I was not disappointed, for the daughter was true to
- the mother's teaching. I told Mamma so yesterday, and she
- looked as glad and grateful as if I'd given her a check for a
- million, to be spent in charity. You are not listening to my
- moral remarks, Mrs. Laurence." And Laurie paused, for Amy's
- eyes had an absent look, though fixed upon his face.
-
- "Yes, I am, and admiring the mple in your chin at the
- same time. I don't wish to make you vain, but I must confess
- that I'm prouder of my handsome husband than of all his money.
- Don't laugh, but your nose is such a comfort to me." And Amy
- softly caressed the well-cut feature with artistic satisfaction.
-
- Laurie had received many compliments in his life, but never
- one that suited him better, as he plainly showed though he did
- laugh at his wife's peculiar taste, while she said slowly, "May
- I ask you a question, dear?"
-
- "Of course, you may."
-
- "Shall you care if Jo does marry Mr. Bhaer?"
-
- "Oh, that's the trouble is it? I thought there was something
- in the dimple that didn't quite suit you. Not being a dog in the
- manger, but the happiest fellow alive, I assure you I can dance
- at Jo's wedding with a heart as light as my heels. Do you doubt
- it, my darling?"
-
- Amy looked up at him, and was satisfied. Her little jealous
- fear vanished forever, and she thanked him, with a face full of
- love and confidence.
-
- "I wish we could do something for that capital old Professor.
- Couldn't we invent a rich relation, who shall obligingly die out
- there in Germany, and leave him a tidy little fortune?" said Laurie,
- when they began to pace up and down the long drawing room, arm in
- arm, as they were fond of doing, in memory of the chateau garden.
-
- "Jo would find us out, and spoil it all. She is very proud
- of him, just as he is, and said yesterday that she thought pov-
- erty was a beautiful thing."
-
- "Bless her dear heart! She won't think so when she has a
- literary husband, and a dozen little professors and professorins
- to support. We won't interfere now, but watch our chance, and
- do them a good turn in spite of themselves. I owe Jo for a part
- of my education, and she believes in people's paying their hon-
- est debts, so I'll get round her in that way."
-
- "How delightful it is to be able to help others, isn't it?
- That was always one of my dreams, to have the power of giving
- freely, and thanks to you, the dream has come true."
-
- "Ah, we'll do quantities of good, won't we? There's one
- sort of poverty that I particularly like to help. Out-and-out
- beggars get taken care of, but poor gentle folks fare badly,
- because they won't ask, and people don't dare to offer charity.
- Yet there are a thousand ways of helping them, if one only
- knows how to do it so delicately that it does not offend. I
- must say, I like to serve a decayed gentleman better than a
- blarnerying beggar. I suppose it's wrong, but I do, though it
- is harder."
-
- "Because it takes a gentleman to do it," added the other
- member of the domestic admiration society.
-
- "Thank you, I'm afraid I don't deserve that pretty compliment.
- But I was going to say that while I was dawdling about abroad, I
- saw a good many talented young fellows making all sorts of sac-
- rifices, and enduring real hardships, that they might realize
- their dreams. Splendid fellows, some of them, working like heros,
- poor and friendless, but so full of courage, patience, and am-
- bition that I was ashamed of myself, and longed to give them a
- right good lift. Those are people whom it's a satisfaction to
- help, for if they've got genius, it's an honor to be allowed to
- serve them, and not let it be lost or delayed for want of fuel
- to keep the pot boiling. If they haven't, it's a pleasure to
- comfort the poor souls, and keep them from despair when they find
- it out."
-
- "Yes, indeed, and there's another class who can't ask, and
- who suffer in silence. I know something of it, for I belonged to
- it before you made a princess of me, as the king does the beggar-
- maid in the old story. Ambitious girls have a hard time, Laurie,
- and often have to see youth, health, and precious opportunities
- go by, just for want of a little help at the right minute. People
- have been very kind to me, and whenever I see girls struggling
- along, as we used to do, I want to put out my hand and help them,
- as I was helped."
-
- "And so you shall, like an angel as you are!" cried Laurie,
- resolving, with a glow of philanthropic zeal, to found and en-
- dow an institution for the express benefit of young women with
- artistic tendencies. "Rich people have no right to sit down
- and enjoy themselves, or let their money accumulate for others
- to waste. It's not half so sensible to leave legacies when one
- dies as it is to use the money wisely while alive, and enjoy
- making one's fellow creatures happy with it. We'll have a good
- time ourselves, and add an extra relish to our own pleasure by
- giving other people a generous taste. Will you be a little
- Dorcal, going about emptying a big basket of comforts, and
- filling it up with good deeds?"
-
- "With all my heart, if you will be a brave St. Martin,
- stopping as you ride gallantly through the world to share your
- cloak with the beggar."
-
- "It's a bargain, and we shall get the best of it!"
-
- So the young pair shook hands upon it, and then paced
- happily on again, feeling that their pleasant home was more
- homelike because they hoped to brighten other homes, believing
- that their own feet would walk more uprightly along the flowery
- path before them, if they smoothed rough ways for other feet,
- and feeling that their hearts were more closely knit together
- by a love which could tenderly remember those less blest than
- they.
-
-
- CHAPTER FORTY-FIVE
-
- I cannot feel that I have done my duty as humble historian
- of the March family, without devoting at least one chapter to
- the two most precious and important members of it. Daisy and
- Demi had now arrived at years of discretion, for in this fast
- age babies of three or four assert their rights, and get them,
- too, which is more than many of their elders do. If there
- ever were a pair of twins in danger of being utterly spoiled
- by adoration, it was these prattling Brookes. Of course they
- were the most remarkable children ever born, as will be shown
- when I mention that they walked at eight months, talked flu-
- ently at twelve months, and at two years they took their places
- at table, and behaved with a propriety which charmed all be-
- holders. At three, Daisy demanded a `needler', and actually
- made a bag with four stitches in it. She likewise set up
- housekeeping in the sideboard, and managed a microscopic cook-
- ing stove with a skill that brought tears of pride to Hannah's
- eyes, while Demi learned his letters with his grandfather, who
- invented a new mode of teaching the alphabet by forming letters
- with his arms and legs, thus uniting gymnastics for head and
- heels. The boy early developed a mechanical genius which de-
- lighted his father and distracted his mother, for he tried to
- imitate every machine he saw, and kept the nursery in a chaotic
- condition, with his `sewinsheen', a mysterious structure of
- string, chairs, clothespins, and spools, for wheels to go
- `wound and wound'. Also a basket hung over the back of a chair,
- in which he vainly tried to hoist his too confiding sister, who,
- with feminine devotion, allowed her little head to be bumped till
- rescued, when the young inventor indignantly remarked, "Why,
- Marmar, dat's my lellywaiter, and me's trying to pull her up."
-
- Though utterly unlike in character, the twins got on re-
- markably well together, and seldom quarreled more than thrice
- a day. Of course, Demi tyrannized over Daisy, and gallantly
- defended her from every other aggressor, while Daisy made a
- galley slave of herself, and adored her brother as the one per-
- fect being in the world. A rosy, chubby, sunshiny little soul
- was Daisy, who found her way to everybody's heart, and nestled
- there. One of the captivating children, who seem made to be
- kissed and cuddled, adorned and adored like little goddesses,
- and produced for general approval on all festive occasions.
- Her small virtues were so sweet that she would have been quite
- angelic if a few small naughtinesses had not kept her delight-
- fully human. It was all fair weather in her world, and every
- morning she scrambled up to the window in her little nightgown
- to look our, and say, no matter whether it rained or shone,
- "Oh, pitty day, oh, pitty day!" Everyone was a friend, and she
- offered kisses to a stranger so confidingly that the most in-
- veterate bachelor relented, and baby-lovers became faithful
- worshipers.
-
- "Me loves evvybody," she once said, opening her arms, with
- her spoon in one hand, and her mug in the other, as if eager to
- embrace and nourish the whole world.
-
- As she grew, her mother began to feel that the Dovecote
- would be blessed by the presence of an inmate as serene and lov-
- ing as that which had helped to make the old house home, and to
- pray that she might be spared a loss like that which had lately
- taught them how long they had entertained an angel unawares. Her
- grandfather often called her `Beth', and her grandmother watched
- over her with untiring devotion, as if trying to atone for some
- past mistake, which no eye but her own could see.
-
- Demi, like a true Yankee, was of an inquiring turn, wanting
- to know everything, and often getting much disturbed because he
- could not get satisfactory answers to his perpetual "What for?"
-
- He also possessed a philosophic bent, to the great delight of
- his grandfather, who used to hold Socratic conversations with him,
- in which the precocious pupil occasionally posed his teacher, to
- the undisguised satisfaction of the womenfolk.
-
- "What makes my legs go, Dranpa?" asked the young philosopher,
- surveying those active portions of his frame with a meditative air,
- while resting after a go-to-bed frolic one night.
-
- "It's your little mind, Demi," replied the sage, stroking the
- yellow head respectfully.
-
- "What is a little mine?"
-
- "It is something which makes your body move, as the spring
- made the wheels go in my watch when I showed it to you."
-
- "Open me. I want to see it go wound."
-
- "I can't do that any more than you could open the watch. God
- winds you up, and you go till He stops you."
-
- "Does I?" And Demi's brown eyes grew big and bright as he
- took in the new thought. "Is I wounded up like the watch?"
-
- "Yes, but I can't show you how, for it is done when we don't
- see."
-
- Demi felt his back, as if expecting to find it like that of
- the watch, and then gravely remarked, "I dess Dod does it when
- I's asleep."
-
- A careful explanation followed, to which he listened so at-
- tentively that his anxious grandmother said, "My dear, do you
- think it wise to talk about such things to that baby? He's get-
- ting great bumps over his eyes, and learning to ask the most
- unanswerable questions."
-
- "If he is old enough to ask the question he is old enough to
- receive true answers. I am not putting the thoughts into his
- head, but helping him unfold those already there. These children
- are wiser than we are, and I have no doubt the boy understands
- every word I have said to him. Now, Demi, tell me where you keep
- your mind."
-
- If the boy had replied like Alcibiades, "By the gods, Socrates,
- I cannot tell," his grandfather would not have been surprised, but
- when, after standing a moment on one leg, like a meditative young
- stork, he answered, in a tone of calm conviction, "In my little
- belly," the old gentleman could only join in Grandma's laugh, and
- dismiss the class in metaphysics.
-
- There might have been cause for maternal anxiety, if Demi had
- not given convincing proofs that he was a true boy, as well as a
- budding philosopher, for often, after a discussion which caused
- Hannah to prophesy, with ominous nods, "That child ain't long for
- this world," he would turn about and set her fears at rest by
- some of the pranks with which dear, dirty, naughty little rascals
- distract and delight their parent's souls.
-
- Meg made many moral rules, and tried to keep them, but what
- mother was ever proof against the winning wiles, the ingenious
- evasions, or the tranquil audacity of the miniature men and women
- who so early show themselves accomplished Artful Dodgers?
-
- "No more raisins, Demi. They'll make you sick," says Mamma
- to the young person who offers his services in the kitchen with
- unfailing regularity on plum-pudding day.
-
- "Me likes to be sick."
-
- "I don't want to have you, so run away and help Daisy make
- patty cakes."
-
- He reluctantly departs, but his wrongs weigh upon his spirit,
- and by-and-by when an opportunity comes to redress them, he out-
- wits Mamma by a shrewd bargain.
-
- "Now you have been good children, and I'll play anything you
- like," says Meg, as she leads her assistant cooks upstairs, when
- the pudding is safely bouncing in the pot.
-
- "Truly, Marmar?" asks Demi, with a brilliant idea in his well-
- powdered head.
-
- "Yes, truly. Anything you say," replies the shortsighted par-
- ent, preparing herself to sing, "The Three Little Kittens" half a
- dozen times over, or to take her family to "Buy a penny bun," re-
- gardless of wind or limb. But Demi corners her by the cool reply...
-
- "Then we'll go and eat up all the raisins."
-
- Aunt Dodo was chief playmate and confidante of both children,
- and the trio turned the little house topsy-turvy. Aunt Amy was as
- yet only a name to them, Aunt Beth soon faded into a pleasantly
- vague memory, but Aunt Dodo was a living reality, and they made the
- most of her, for which compliment she was deeply grateful. But
- when Mr. Bhaer came, Jo neglected her playfellows, and dismay and
- desolation fell upon their little souls. Daisy, who was fond of
- going about peddling kisses, lost her best customer and became
- bankrupt. Demi, with infantile penetration, soon discovered that
- Dodo like to play with `the bear-man' better than she did him,
- but though hurt, he concealed his anguish, for he hadn't the
- heart to insult a rival who kept a mine of chocolate drops in
- his waistcoat pocket, and a watch that could be taken out of its
- case and freely shaken by ardent admirers.
-
- Some persons might have considered these pleasing liberties
- as bribes, but Demi didn't see it in that light, and continued to
- patronize the `the bear-man' with pensive affability, while Daisy
- bestowed her small affections upon him at the third call, and
- considered his shoulder her throne, his arm her refuge, his gifts
- treasures surpassing worth.
-
- Gentlemen are sometimes seized with sudden fits of admiration
- for the young relatives of ladies whom they honor with their regard,
- but this counterfeit philoprogenitiveness sits uneasily upon them,
- and does not deceive anybody a particle. Mr. Bhaer's devotion was
- sincere, however likewise effective--for honesty is the best policy
- in love as in law. He was one of the men who are at home with chil-
- dren, and looked particularly well when little faces made a pleasant
- contrast with his manly one. His business, whatever it was, detained
- him from day to day, but evening seldom failed to bring him out to
- see--well, he always asked for Mr. March, so I suppose he was the
- attraction. The excellent papa labored under the delusion that he
- was, and reveled in long discussions with the kindred spirit, till
- a chance remark of his more observing grandson suddenly enlightened
- him.
-
- Mr. Bhaer came in one evening to pause on the threshold of the
- study, astonished by the spectacle that met his eye. Prone upon
- the floor lay Mr. March, with his respectable legs in the air, and
- beside him, likewise prone, was Demi, trying to imitate the atti-
- tude with his own short, scarlet-stockinged legs, both grovelers
- so seriously absorbed that they were unconscious of spectators,
- till Mr. Bhaer laughed his sonorous laugh, and Jo cried out, with
- a scandalized face . . .
-
- "Father, Father, here's the Professor!"
-
- Down went the black legs and up came the gray head, as the
- preceptor said, with undisturbed dignity, "Good evening, Mr. Bhaer.
- Excuse me for a moment. We are just finishing our lesson. Now,
- Demi, make the letter and tell its name."
-
- "I knows him!" And, after a few convulsive efforts, the red
- legs tok the shape of a pair of compasses, and the intelligent
- pupil triumphantly shouted, "It's a We, Dranpa, it's a We!"
-
- "He's a born Weller," laughed Jo, as her parent gathered him-
- self up, and her nephew tried to stand on his head, as the only
- mode of expressing his satisfaction that school was over.
-
- "What have you been at today, bubchen?" asked Mr. Bhaer, pick-
- ing up the gymnast.
-
- "Me went to see little Mary."
-
- "And what did you there?"
-
- "I kissed her," began Demi, with artless frankness.
-
- "Prut! Thou beginnest early. What did the little Mary say
- to that?" asked Mr. Bhaer, continuing to confess the young sinner,
- who stood upon the knee, exploring the waistcoat pocket.
-
- "Oh, she liked it, and she kissed me, and I liked it. Don't
- little boys like little girls?" asked Demi, with his mouth full,
- and an air of bland satisfaction.
-
- "You precious chick! Who put that into your head?" said Jo,
- enjoying the innocent revelation as much as the Professor.
-
- "`Tisn't in mine head, it's in mine mouf," answered literal
- Demi, putting out his tongue, with a chocolate drop on it, think-
- ing she alluded to confectionery, not ideas.
-
- "Thou shouldst save some for the little friend. Sweets to
- the sweet, mannling." And Mr. Bhaer offered Jo some, with a look
- that made her wonder if chocolate was not the nectar drunk by the
- gods. Demi also saw the smile, was impressed by it, and artlessy
- inquired. ..
-
- "Do great boys like great girls, to, 'Fessor?"
-
- Like young Washington, Mr. Bhaer `couldn't tell a lie', so
- he gave the somewhat vague reply that he believed they did some-
- times,in a tone that made Mr. March put down his clothesbrush,
- glance at Jo's retiring face, and then sink into his chair, look-
- ing as if the `precocious chick' had put an idea into his head
- that was both sweet and sour.
-
- Why Dodo, when she caught him in the china closet half an
- hour afterward, nearly squeezed the breath out of his little body
- with a tender embrace, instead of shaking him for being there,
- and why she followed up this novel performance by the unexpected
- gift of a big slice of bread and jelly, remained one of the prob-
- lems over which Demi puzzled his small wits, and was forced to
- leave unsolved forever.
-
-
- CHAPTER FORTY-SIX
-
- While Laurie and Amy were taking conjugal strolls over velvet
- carpets, as they set their house in order, and planned a blissful
- future, Mr. Bhaer and Jo were enjoying promenades of a different
- sort, along muddy roads and sodden fields.
-
- "I always do take a walk toward evening, and I don't know
- why I should give it up, just because I happen to meet the Pro-
- fessor on his way out," said Jo to herself, after two or three
- encounters, for though there were two paths to Meg's whichever
- one she took she was sure to meet him., either going or return-
- ing. He was always walking rapidly, and never seemed to see her
- until quite close, when he would look as if his short-sighted
- eyes had failed to recognize the approaching lady till that
- moment. Then, if she was going to Meg's he always had something
- for the babies. If her face was turned homeward, he had merely
- strolled down to see the river, and was just returning, unless
- they were tired of his frequent calls.
-
- Under the circumstances, what could Jo do but greet him
- civilly, and invite him in? If she was tired of his visits, she
- concealed her weariness with perfect skill,and took care that
- there should be coffee for supper, "as Friedrich--I mean Mr.
- Bhaer--doesn't like tea."
-
- By the second week, everyone knew perfectly well what was
- going on, yet everyone tried to look as if they were stone-blind
- to the changes in Jo's face. They never asked why she sang about
- her work, did up her hair three times a day, and got so blooming
- with her evening exercise. And no one seemed to have the slight-
- est suspicion that Professor Bhaer, while talking philosophy with
- the father, was giving the daughter lessons in love.
-
- Jo couldn't even lose her heart in a decorous manner, but
- sternly tried to quench her feelings, and failing to do so, led
- a somewhat agitated life. She was mortally afraid of being laughed
- at for surrendering, after her many and vehement declarations of
- independence. Laurie was her especial dread, but thanks to the
- new manager, he behaved with praiseworthy propriety, never called
- Mr. Bhaer `a capital old fellow' in public, never alluded, in the
- remotest manner, to Jo's improved appearance, or expressed the
- least surprise at seeing the Professor's hat on the Marches' table
- nearly every evening. But he exulted in private and longed for
- the time to come when he could give Jo a piece of plate, with a
- bear and a ragged staff on it as an appropriate coat of arms.
-
- For a fortnight, the Professor came and went with lover-like
- regularity. Then he stayed away for three whole days, and made
- no sign, a proceeding which caused everybody to look sober, and
- Jo to become pensive, at first, and then--alas for romance--very
- cross.
-
- "Disgusted, I dare say, and gone home as suddenly as he came.
- It's nothing tome, of course, but I should think he would have
- come and bid us goodbye like a gentleman," she said to herself,
- with a despairing look at the gate, as she put on her things for
- the customary walk one dull afternoon.
-
- "You'd better take the little umbrella, dear. It looks like
- rain," said her mother, observing that she had on her new bonnet,
- but not alluding to the fact.
-
- "Yes, Marmee, do you want anything in town? I've got to
- run in and get some paper," returned Jo, pulling out the bow
- under her chin before the glass as an excuse for not looking at
- her mother.
-
- "Yes, I want some twilled silesia, a paper of number nine
- needles, and two yards of narrow lavender ribbon. Have you got
- your thick boots on, and something warm under your cloak?"
-
- "I believe so," answered Jo absently.
-
- "If you happen to meet Mr. Bhaer, bring him home to tea.
- I quite long to see the dear man," added Mrs. March.
-
- Jo heard that, but made no answer, except to kiss her mother,
- and walk rapidly away, thinking with a glow of gratitude, in spite
- of her heartache, "How good she is to me! What do girls do who
- haven't any mothers to help them through their troubles?"
-
- The dry-goods stores were not down among the counting-houses,
- banks, and wholesale warerooms, where gentlemen most do congregate,
- but Jo found herself in that part of the city before she did a
- single errand, loitering along as if waiting for someone, examin-
- ing engineering instruments in one window and samples of wool in
- another, with most unfeminine interest, tumbling over barrels,
- being half-smothered by descending bales, and hustled unceremon-
- iously by busy men who looked as if they wondered `how the deuce
- she got there'. A drop of rain on her cheek recalled her thoughts
- from baffled hopes to ruined ribbons. For the drops continued to
- fall, and being a woman as well as a lover, she felt that, though
- it was too late to save her heart, she might her bonnet. Now she
- remembered the little umbrella, which she had forgotten to take
- in her hurry to be off, but regret was unavailing, and nothing
- could be done but borrow one or submit to to a drenching. She
- looked up at the lowering sky, down at the crimson bow already
- flecked with black, forward along the muddy street, then one
- long, lingering look behind, at a certain grimy warehouse, with
- `Hoffmann, Swartz, & Co.' over the door, and said to herself,
- with a sternly reproachful air...
-
- "It serves me right! what business had I to put on all my
- best things and come philandering down here, hoping to see the
- Professor? Jo, I'm ashamed of you! No, you shall not go there
- to borrow an umbrella, or find out where he is, from his friends.
- You shall trudge away, and do your errands in the rain, and if
- you catch your death and ruin your bonnet, it's no more than
- you deserve. Now then!"
-
- With that she rushed across the street so impetuously that
- she narrowly escaped annihilation from a passing truck,and pre-
- cipitated herself into the arms of a stately old gentleman, who
- said, "I beg pardon, ma'am," and looked mortally offended. Some-
- what daunted, Jo righted herself, spread her handkerchief over
- the devoted ribbons, and putting temptation behind her, hurried on,
- with increasing dampness about the ankles, and much clashing of
- umbrellas overhead. The fact that a somewhat dilapidated blue
- one remained stationary above the unprotected bonnet attracted
- her attention, and looking up, she saw Mr. Bhaer looking down.
-
- "I feel to know the strong-minded lady who goes so bravely
- under many horse noses, and so fast through much mus. What do
- you down here, my friend?"
-
- "I'm shopping."
-
- Mr. Bhaer smiled, as he glanced from the pickle factory on
- one side to the wholesale hide and leather concern on the other,
- but her only said politely, "You haf no umbrella. May I go also,
- and take for you the bundles?"
-
- "Yes, thank you."
-
- Jo's cheeks were as red as her ribbon, and she wondered what
- he thought of her, but she didn't care, for in a minute she found
- herself walking away arm in arm with her Professor, feeling as if
- the sun had suddenly burst out with uncommon brilliancy, that
- the world was all right again, and that one thoroughly happy woman
- was paddling through the wet that day.
-
- "We thought you had gone," said Jo hastily, for she knew he
- was looking at her. Her bonnet wasn't big enough to hide her face,
- and she feared he might think the joy it betrayed unmaidenly.
-
- "Did you believe that I should go with no farewell to those
- who haf been so heavenly kind tome?" he asked so reproachfully
- that she felt as if she had insulted him by the suggestion, and
- answered heartily . . .
-
- "No, I didn't. I knew you were busy about your own affairs,
- but we rather missed you, Father and Mother especially."
-
- "And you?"
-
- "I'm always glad to see you, sir."
-
- In her anxiety to keep her voice quite calm, Jo made it rather
- cool, and the frosty little monosyllable at the end seemed to chill
- the Professor, for his smile vanished, as he said gravely . . .
-
- "I thank you, and come one more time before I go."
-
- "You are going, then?"
-
- "I haf no longer any business here, it is done."
-
- "Successfully, I hope?" said Jo, for the bitterness of dis-
- appointment was in that short reply of his.
-
- "I ought to think so, for I haf a way opened to me by which
- I can make my bread and gif my Junglings much help."
-
- "Tell me, please! I like to know all about the--the boys,"
- said Jo eagerly.
-
- "That is so kind, I gladly tell you. My friends find for me
- a place in a college, where I teach as at home, and earn enough
- to make the way smooth for Franz and Emil. For this I should be
- grateful, should I not?"
-
- "Indeed you should. How splendid it will be to have you
- doing what you like, and be able to see you often, and the boys!"
- cried Jo, clinging to the lads as an excuse for the satisfaction
- she could not help betraying.
-
- "Ah! But we shall not meet often, I fear, this place is at
- the West."
-
- "So far away!" And Jo left her skirts to their fate, as if
- it didn't matter now what became of her clothes or herself.
-
- Mr. Bhaer could read several languages, but he had not
- learned to read women yet. He flattered himself that he knew
- Jo pretty well, and was, therefore, much amazed by the contra-
- dictions of voice, face, and manner, which she showed him in
- rapid succession that day, for she was in half a dozen different
- moods in the course of half an hour. When she met him she looked
- surprised, though it was impossible to help suspecting that she
- had come for that express purpose. When he offered her his arm,
- she took it with a look that filled him with delight, but when
- he asked if she missed him, she gave such a chilly, formal reply
- that despair fell upon him. On learning his good fortune she
- almost clapped her hands. Was the joy all for the boys? Then
- on hearing his destination, she said, "So far away!" in a tone
- of despair that lifted him on to a pinnacle of hope, but the
- next minute she tumbled him down again by observing, like one
- entirely absorbed in the matter...
-
- "Here's the place for my errands. Will you come in? It
- won't take long."
-
- Jo rather prided herself upon her shopping capabilities,
- and particularly wished to impress her escort with the neat-
- ness and dispatch with which she would accomplish the business.
- But owing to the flutter she was in, everything went amiss.
- She upset the tray of needles, forgot the silesia was to be
- `twilled' till it was cut off, gave the wrong change, and
- covered herself with confusion by asking for lavender ribbon
- at the calico counter. Mr. Bhaer stood by, watching her blush
- and blunder, and as he watched, his own bewilderment seemed to
- subside, for he was beginning to see that on some occasions,
- women,like dreams, go by contraries.
-
- When they came out, he put the parcel under his arm with
- a more cheerful aspect, and splashed through the puddles as if
- he rather enjoyed it on the whole.
-
- "Should we no do a little what you call shopping for the
- babies, and haf a farewell feast tonight if I go for my last
- call at your so pleasant home?" he asked, stopping before a
- window full of fruit and flowers.
-
- "What will we buy?" asked Jo, ignoring the latter part of
- his speech, and sniffing the mingled odors with an affectation
- of delight as they went in.
-
- "May they haf oranges and figs?" asked Mr. Bhaer, with a
- paternal air.
-
- "They eat them when they can get them."
-
- "Do you care for nuts?"
-
- "Like a squirrel."
-
- "Hamburg grapes. Yes, we shall drink to the Fatherland in
- those?"
-
- Jo frowned upon that piece of extravagance, and asked why
- he didn't buy a frail of dated, a cask of raisins, and a bag of
- almonds, and be done with it? Whereat Mr. Bhaer confiscated her
- purse, produced his own, and finished the marketing by buying
- several pounds of grapes, a pot of rosy daisies, and a pretty
- jar of honey, to be regarded in the light of a demijohn. Then
- distorting his pockets with knobby bundles,and giving her the
- flowers to hold, he put up the old umbrella, and they traveled
- on again.
-
- "Miss Marsch, I haf a great favor to ask of you," began the
- Professor, after a moist promenade of half a block.
-
- "Yes, sir." And Jo's heart began to beat so hard she was
- afraid he would hear it.
-
- "I am bold to say it in spite of the rain, because so short
- a time remains to me."
-
- "Yes, sir." And Jo nearly crushed the small flowerpot with
- the sudden squeeze she gave it.
-
- "I wish to get a little dress for my Tina, and I am too stupid
- to go alone. Will you kindly gif me a word of taste and help?"
-
- "Yes, sir." And JO felt as calm and cool all of a sudden as if
- she had stepped into a refrigerator.
-
- "Perhaps also a shawl for Tina's mother, she is so poor and sick,
- and the husband is such a care. Yes, yes, a thick, warm shawl
- would be a friendly thing to take the little mother."
-
- "I'll do it with pleasure, Mr. Bhaer. I'm going very fast,
- and he's getting dearer every minute," added Jo to herself, then
- with a mental shake she entered into the business with an energy
- that was pleasant to behold.
-
- Mr. Bhaer left it all to her, so she chose a pretty gown for
- Tina, and then ordered out the shawls. The clerk, being a married
- man, condescended to take an interest in the couple, who appeared
- to be shopping for their family.
-
- "Your lady may prefer this. It's a superior article, a most
- desirable color, quite chaste and genteel," he said, shaking out
- a comfortable gray shawl, and throwing it over Jo's shoulders.
-
- "Does this suit you, Mr. Bhaer?" she asked, turning her
- back to him, and feeling deeply grateful for the chance of hiding
- her face.
-
- "Excellently well, we will haf it," answered the Professor,
- smiling to himself as he paid for it, while Jo continued to
- rummage the counters like a confirmed bargain-hunter.
-
- "Now shall we go home?" he asked, as if the words were
- very pleasant to him.
-
- "Yes, it's late, and I'm so tired." Jo's voice was more
- pathetic than she knew. For now the sun seemed to have gone
- in as suddenly as it came out, and the world grew muddy and
- miserable again, and for the first time she discovered that her
- feet were cold, her head ached, and that her heart was colder
- than the former, fuller of pain than the latter. Mr. Bhaer
- was going away, he only cared for her as a friend, it was all
- a mistake, and the sooner it was over the better. With this
- idea in her head, she hailed an approaching omnibus with such
- a hasty gesture that the daisies flew out of the pot and were
- badly damaged.
-
- "This is not our omniboos," said the Professor, waving the
- loaded vehicle away, and stopping to pick up the poor little
- flowers.
-
- "I beg your pardon. I didn't see the name distinctly. Never
- mind, I can walk. I'm used to plodding in the mud," returned Jo,
- winking hard, because she would have died rather than openly
- wipe her eyes.
- MR. Bhaer saw the drops on her cheeks, though she turned her
- head away. The sight seemed to touch him very much, for suddenly
- stooping down, he asked in a tone that meant a great deal, "Heart's
- dearest, why do you cry?"
-
- Now, if Jo had not been new to this sort of thing she would
- have said she wasn't crying, had a cold in her head, or told
- any other feminine fib proper to the occasion. Instead of which,
- that undignified creature answered, with an irrepressible sob,
- "Because you are going away."
-
- "Ach, mein Gott, that is so good!" cried Mr. Bhaer, managing
- to clasp his hands in spite of the umbrella and the bundles, "Jo,
- I haf nothing but much love to gif you. I came to see if you
- could care for it, and I waited to be sure that I was something
- more than a friend. Am I? Can you make a little place in your
- heart for old Fritz?" he added, all in one breath.
-
- "Oh, yes!" said Jo, and he was quite satisfied, for she
- folded both hands over his are, and looked up at him with an
- expression that plainly showed how happy she would be to walk
- through life beside him, even though she had no better shelter
- than the old umbrella, if he carried it.
-
- It was certainly proposing under difficulties, for even if
- he had desired to do so, Mr. Bhaer could not go down upon his
- knees, on account of the mud. Neither could he offer Jo his
- hand, except figuratively, for both were full. Much less could
- he indulge in tender remonstrations in the open street, though
- he was near it. So the only way in which he could express his
- rapture was to look at her, with an expression which glorified
- his face to such a degree that there actually seemed to be
- little rainbows in the drops that sparkled on his beard. If
- he had not loved Jo very much, I don't think he could have done
- it then, for she looked far from lovely, with her skirts in a
- deplorable state, her rubber boots splashed to the ankle, and
- her bonnet a ruin. Fortunately, Mr. Bhaer considered her the
- most beautiful woman living, and she found him more `Jove-like"
- than ever, though his hatbrim was quite limp with the little
- rills trickling thence upon his shoulders (for he held the
- umbrella all over Jo), and every finger of his gloves needed
- mending.
-
- Passers-by probably thought them a pair of harmless lun-
- atics, for they entirely forgot to hail a bus, and strolled
- leisurely along, oblivious of deepening dusk and fog. Little
- they cared what anybody thought, for they were enjoying the
- happy hour that seldom comes but once in any life, the magi-
- cal moment which bestows youth on the old, beauty on the plain,
- wealth on the poor, and gives human hearts a foretaste of heaven.
- The Professor looked as if he had conquered a kingdom, and the
- world had nothing more to offer him in the way of bliss. While
- Jo trudged beside him, feeling as if her place had always been
- there, and wondering how she ever could have chosen any other
- lot. Of course, she was the first to speak--intelligibly, I
- mean, for the emotional remarks which followed her impetuous
- "Oh, yes!" were not of a coherent or reportable character.
-
- "Friedrich, why didn't you . . ."
-
- "Ah, heaven, she gifs me the name that no one speaks since
- Minna died!" cried the Professor, pausing in a puddle to regard
- her with grateful delight.
-
- "I always call you so to myself--I forgot, but I won't unless
- you like it."
-
- "Like it? It is more sweet to me than I can tell. Say `thou',
- also, and I shall say your language is almost as beautiful as mine."
-
- "Isn't `thou' a little sentimental?" asked Jo, privately think-
- ing it a lovely monosyllable.
-
- "Sentimental? Yes. Thank Gott, we Germans believe in sentiment,
- and keep ourselves young mit it. Your English `you' is so cold, say
- `thou', heart's dearest, it means so much to me," pleaded Mr. Bhaer,
- more like a romantic student than a grave professor.
-
- "Well, then, why didn't thou tell me all this sooner?" asked
- Jo bashfully.
-
- "Now I shall haf to show thee all my heart, and I so gladly
- will, because thou must take care of it hereafter. See, then, my
- Jo--ah, the dear, funny little name--I had a wish to tell some-
- thing the day I said goodbye in New York, but I thought the hand-
- some friend was betrothed to thee, and so I spoke not. Wouldst
- thou have said `Yes', then, if I had spoken?"
-
- "I don't know. I'm afraid not, for I didn't have any heart
- just then."
-
- "Prut! That I do not believe. It was asleep till the fairy
- prince came through the wood, and waked it up. Ah, well, `Die
- erste Liebe ist die beste', but that I should not expect."
-
- "Yes, the first love is the best, but be so contented, for I
- never had another. Teddy was only a boy, and soon got over his
- little fancy," said Jo, anxious to correct the Professor's mis-
- take.
-
- "Good! Then I shall rest happy, and be sure that thou givest
- me all. I haf waited so long, I am grown selfish, as thou wilt
- find , Professorin."
-
- "I like that," cried Jo, delighted with her new name. "Now
- tell me what brought you, at last, just when I wanted you?"
-
- "This." And Mr. Bhaer took a little worn paper out of his
- waistcoat pocket.
-
- Jo unfolded it, and looked much abashed, for it was one of
- her own contributions to a paper that paid for poetry, which
- accounted for her sending it an occasional attempt.
-
- "How could that bring you?" she asked, wondering what he
- meant.
-
- "I found it by chance. I knew it by the names and the
- initials, and in it there was one little verse that seemed to
- call me. Read and find him. I will see that you go not in
- the wet."
-
- IN THE GARRET
-
- Four little chests all in a row,
- Dim with dust, and worn by time,
- All fashioned and filled, long ago,
- By children now in their prime.
- Four little keys hung side by side,
- With faded ribbons, brave and gay
- When fastened there, with childish pride,
- Long ago, on a rainy day.
- Four little names, one on each lid,
- Carved out by a boyish hand,
- And underneath there lieth hid
- Histories of the happpy band
- Once playing here, and pausing oft
- To hear the sweet refrain,
- That came and went on the roof aloft,
- In the falling summer rain.
-
- "Meg" on the first lid, smooth and fair.
- I look in with loving eyes,
- For folded here, with well-known care,
- A goodly gathering lies,
- The record of a peaceful life--
- Gifts to gentle child and girl,
- A bridal gown, lines to a wife,
- A tiny shoe, a baby curl.
- No toys in this first chest remain,
- For all are carried away,
- In their old age, to join again
- In another small Meg's play.
- Ah, happy mother! Well I know
- You hear, like a sweet refrain,
- Lullabies ever soft and low
- In the falling summer rain.
-
- "Jo" on the next lid, scratched and worn,
- And within a motley store
- Of headless, dolls, of schoolbooks torn,
- Birds and beasts that speak no more,
- Spoils brought home from the fairy ground
- Only trod by youthful feet,
- Dreams of a future never found,
- Memories of a past still sweet,
- Half-writ poems, stories wild,
- April letters, warm and cold,
- Diaries of a wilful child,
- Hints of a woman early old,
- A woman in a lonely home,
- Hearing, like a sad refrain--
- "Be worthy, love, and love will come,"
- In the falling summer rain.
-
- My Beth! the dust is always swept
- From the lid that bears your name,
- As if by loving eyes that wept,
- By careful hands that often came.
- Death cannonized for us one saint,
- Ever less human than divine,
- And still we lay, with tender plaint,
- Relics in this household shrine--
- The silver bell, so seldom rung,
- The little cap which last she wore,
- The fair, dead Catherine that hung
- By angels borne above her door.
- The songs she sang, without lament,
- In her prison-house of pain,
- Forever are they sweetly blent
- With the falling summer rain.
-
- Upon the last lid's polished field--
- Legend now both fair and true
- A gallant knight bears on his shield,
- "Amy" in letters gold and blue.
- Within lie snoods that bound her hair,
- Slippers that have danced their last,
- Faded flowers laid by with care,
- Fans whose airy toils are past,
- Gay valentines, all ardent flames,
- Trifles that have borne their part
- In girlish hopes and fears and shames,
- The record of a maiden heart
- Now learning fairer, truer spells,
- Hearing, like a blithe refrain,
- The silver sound of bridal bells
- In the falling summer rain.
-
- Four little chests all in a row,
- Dim with dust, and worn by time,
- Four women, taught by weal and woe
- To love and labor in their prime.
- Four sisters, parted for an hour,
- None lost, one only gone before,
- Made by love's immortal power,
- Nearest and dearest evermore.
- Oh, when these hidden stores of ours
- Lie open to the Father's sight,
- May they be rich in golden hours,
- Deeds that show fairer for the light,
- Lives whose brave music long shall ring,
- Like a spirit-stirring strain,
- Souls that shall gladly soar and sing
- In the long sunshine after rain.
-
- "It's very bad poetry, but I felt it when I wrote it, one day
- when I was very lonely, and had a good cry on a rag bag. I never
- thought it would go where it could tell tales," said Jo, tearing
- up the verses the Professor had treasured so long.
-
- "Let it go, it has done it's duty, and I will haf a fresh one
- when I read all the brown book in which she keeps her little
- secrets," said Mr. Bhaer with a smile as he watched the fragments
- fly away on the wind. "Yes," he added earnestly, "I read that,
- and I think to myself, She has a sorrow, she is lonely, she would
- find comfort in true love. I haf a heart full, full for her. Shall
- I not go and say, "If this is not too poor a thing to gif for what
- I shall hope to receive, take it in Gott's name?"
-
- "And so you came to find that it was not too poor,but the one
- precious thing I needed," whispered Jo.
-
- "I had no courage to think that at first, heavenly kind as was
- your welcome to me. But soon I began to hope, and then I said, `I
- will haf her if I die for it'. and so I will!" cried Mr. Bhaer,
- with a defiant nod, as if the walls of mist closing round them were
- barriers which he was to surmount or valiantly knock down.
-
- Jo thought that was splendid, and resolved to be worthy of her
- knight, though he did not come prancing on a charger in gorgeous
- array.
-
- "What made you stay away so long?" she asked presently, finding
- it so pleasant to ask confidential questions and get delightful
- answers that she could not keep silent.
-
- "It was not easy, but I could not find the heart to take you
- from that so happy home until I could haf a prospect of one to
- gif you, after much time, perhaps, and hard work. How could I ask
- you to gif up so much for a poor old fellow, who has no fortune
- but a little learning?"
-
- "I'm glad you are poor. I couldn't bear a rich husband,"
- said Jo decidedly, adding in a softer tone, "Don't fear poverty.
- I've known it long enough to lose my dread and be happy working
- for those I love, and don't call yourself old--forty is the prime
- of life. I couldn't help loving you if you were seventy!"
-
- The Professor found that so touching that he would have been
- glad of his handkerchief, if he could have got at it. As her
- couldn't, Jo wiped his eyes for him, and said, laughing, as she
- took away a bundle or two...
-
- "I may be strong-minded, but no one can say I'm out of my
- sphere now, for woman's special mission is supposed to be drying
- tears and bearing burdens. I'm to carry my share, Friedrich,
- and help to earn the home. Make up your mind to that, or I'll
- never go," she added resolutely, as he tried to reclaim his load.
-
- "We shall see. Haf you patience to wait a long time, Jo?
- I must go away and do my work alone. I must help my boys first,
- because, even for you, I may not break my word to Minna. Can
- you forgif that, and be happy while we hope and wait?"
-
- "Yes, I know I can, for we love one another, and that makes
- all the rest easy to bear. I have my duty, also, and my work.
- I couldn't enjoy myself if I neglected them even for you, so
- there's no need of hurry or impatience. You can do your part
- out West, I can do mine here, and both be happy hoping for the
- best, and leaving the future to be as God wills."
-
- "Ah! Thou gifest me such hope and courage, and I haf nothing
- to gif back but a full heart and these empty hands," cried the
- Professor, quite overcome.
-
- Jo never, never would learn to be proper, for when he said
- that as they stood upon the steps, she just put both hands into
- his, whispering tenderly, "Not empty now," and stooping down,
- kissed her Friedrich under the umbrella. It was dreadful, but
- she would have done it if the flock of draggle-tailed sparrows
- on the hedge had been human beings, for she was very far gone
- indeed, and quite regardless of everything but her own happiness.
- Though it came in such a very simple guise, that was the crowning
- moment of both their lives, when, turning from the night and
- storm and loneliness to the household light and warmth and peace
- waiting to receive them, with a glad "Welcome home!" Jo led her
- lover in, and shut the door.
-
-
- CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
-
- For a year Jo and her Professor worked and waited, hoped
- and loved, met occasionally, and wrote such voluminous letters
- that the rise in the price of paper was accounted for, Laurie
- said. The second year began rather soberly, for their pros-
- pects did not brighten, and Aunt March died suddenly. But
- when their first sorrow was over--for they loved the old lady
- in spite of her sharp tongue--they found they had cause for
- rejoicing, for she had left Plumfield to Jo, which made all
- sorts of joyful things possible.
-
- "It's a fine old place, and will bring a handsome sum, for
- of course you intend to sell it," said Laurie, as they were all
- talking the matter over some weeks later.
-
- "No, I don't," was Jo's decided answer, as she petted the
- fat poodle, whom she had adopted, out of respect to his former
- mistress.
-
- "You don't mean to live there?"
-
- "Yes, I do."
-
- "But, my dear girl, it's an immense house, and will take a
- power of money to keep it in order. The garden and orchard alone
- need two or three men, and farming isn't in Bhaer's line, I take
- it."
-
- "He'll try his hand at it there, if I propose it."
-
- "And you expect to live on the produce of the place? Well,
- that sounds paradisiacal, but you'll find it desperate hard work."
-
- "The crop we are going to raise is a profitable one," And
- Jo laughed.
-
- "Of what is this fine crop to consist, ma'am?"
-
- "Boys. I want to open a school for little lads--a good,
- happy, homelike school, with me to take care of them and Fritz
- to teach them."
-
- "That's a truly Joian plan for you! Isn't that just like
- her?" cried Laurie, appealing to the family, who looked as much
- surprised as he.
-
- "I like it," said Mrs. March decidedly.
-
- "So do I," added her husband, who welcomed the thought of
- a chance for trying the Socratic method of education on modern
- youth.
-
- "It will be an immense care for Jo," said Meg, stroking
- the head or her one all-absorbing son.
-
- "Jo can do it, and be happy in it. It's a splendid idea.
- Tell us all about it," cried Mr. Laurence, who had been longing
- to lend the lovers a hand, but knew that they would refuse his
- help.
-
- "I knew you'd stand by me, sir. Amy does too--I see it in
- her eyes, though she prudently waits to turn it over in her mind
- before she speaks. Now, my dear people," continued Jo earnestly,
- "just understand that this isn't a new idea of mine, but a long-
- cherished plan. Before my Fritz came, I used to think how, when
- I'd made my fortune, and no one needed me at home, I'd hire a
- big house, and pick up some poor, forlorn little lads who hadn't
- any mothers, and take care of them, and make life jolly for them
- before it was too late. I see so many going to ruin for want of
- help at the right minute, I love so to do anything for them, I
- seem to feel their wants, and sympathize with their troubles, and
- oh, I should so like to be a mother to them!"
-
- Mrs. March held out her hand to Jo, who took it, smiling,
- with tears in her eyes, and went on in the old enthusiastic way,
- which they had not seen for a long while.
-
- "I told my plan to Fritz once, and he said it was just what
- he would like, and agreed to try it when we got rich. Bless his
- dear heart, he's been doing it all his life--helping poor boys, I
- mean, not getting rich, that he'll never be. Money doesn't stay
- in his pocket long enough to lay up any. But now, thanks to my
- good old aunt, who loved me better than I ever deserved, I'm rich,
- at least I feel so, and we can live at Plumfield perfectly well,
- if we have a flourishing school. It's just the place for boys,
- the house is big, and the furniture strong and plain. There's
- plenty of room for dozens inside, and splendid grounds outside.
- They could help in the garden and orchard. Such work is healthy,
- isn't it, sir? Then Fritz could train and teach in his own way,
- and Father will help him. I can feed and nurse and pet and scold
- them, and Mother will be my stand-by. I've always longed for lots
- of boys, and never had enough, now I can fill the house full and
- revel in the little dears to my heart's content. Think what lux-
- ury--Plumfield my own, and a wilderness of boys to enjoy it with
- me."
-
- As Jo waved her hands and gave a sigh of rapture, the family
- went off into a gale of merriment, and Mr. Laurence laughed till
- they thought he'd have an apoplectic fit.
-
- "I don't see anything funny," she said gravely, when she
- could be heard. "Nothing could be more natural and proper than
- for my Professor to open a school, and for me to prefer to reside
- in my own estate."
-
- "She is putting on airs already," said Laurie, who regarded
- the idea in the light of a capital joke. "But may I inquire how
- you intend to support the establishment? If all the pupils are
- little ragamuffins, I'm afraid your crop won't be profitable in
- a worldly sense, Mr. Bhaer."
-
- "Now don't be a wet-blanket, Teddy. Of course I shall have
- rich pupils, also--perhaps begin with such altogether. Then,
- when I've got a start, I can take in a ragamuffin or two, just
- for a relish. Rich people's children often need care and comfort,
- as well as poor. I've seen unfortunate little creatures left to
- servants, or backward ones pushed forward, when it's real cruelty.
- Some are naughty through mismanagment or neglect, and some lose
- their mothers. Besides, the best have to get through the hobble-
- dehoy age, and that's the very time they need most patience and
- kindness. People laugh at them, and hustle them about, try to
- keep them out of sight, and expect them to turn all at once from
- pretty children into fine young men. They don't complain much--
- plucky little souls--but they feel it. I've been through some-
- thing of it, and I know all about it. I've a special interest
- in such young bears, and like to show them that I see the warm,
- honest, well-meaning boys' hearts, in spite of the clumsy arms
- and legs and the topsy-turvy heads. I've had experience, too,
- for haven't I brought up one boy to be a pride and honor to his
- family?"
-
- "I'll testify that you tried to do it," said Laurie with a
- grateful look.
-
- "And I've succeeded beyond my hopes, for here you are, a
- steady, sensible businessman, doing heaps of good with your
- money, and laying up the blessings of the poor, instead of dollars.
- But you are not merely a businessman, you love good and beautiful
- things, enjoy them yourself, and let others go halves, as you
- always did in the old times. I am proud of you, Teddy, for you
- get better every year, and everyone feels it, though you won't
- let them say so. Yes, and when I have my flock, I'll just point
- to you, and say `There's your model, my lads'."
-
- Poor Laurie didn't know where to look, for, man though he
- was, something of the old bashfulness came over him as this burst
- of praise made all faces turn approvingly upon him.
-
- "I say, Jo, that's rather too much," he began, just in his
- old boyish way. "You have all done more for me than I can ever
- thank you for, except by doing my best not to disapoint you. You
- have rather cast me off lately, Jo, but I've had the best of help,
- nevertheless. So, if I've got on at all, you may thank these two
- for it." And he laid one hand gently on his grandfather's head,
- and the other on Amy's golden one, for the three were never far
- apart.
-
- "I do think that families are the most beautiful things in
- all the world!" burst out Jo, who was in an unusually up-lifted
- frame of mind just then. "When I have one of my own, I hope it
- will be as happy as the three I know and love the best. If John
- and my Fritz were only here, it would be quite a little heaven
- on earth," she added more quietly. And that night when she went
- to her room after a blissful evening of family counsels, hopes,
- and plans, her heart was so full of happiness that she could only
- calm it by kneeling beside the empty bed always near her own, and
- thinking tender thoughts of Beth.
-
- It was a very astonishing year altogether, for things seemed
- to happen in an unusually rapid and delightful manner. Almost
- before she knew where she was, Jo found herself married and set-
- tled at Plumfield. Then a family of six or seven boys sprung up
- like mushrooms, and flourished surprisingly, poor boys as well as
- rich, for Mr. Laurence was continually finding some touching case
- of destitution, and begging the Bhaers to take pity on the child,
- and he would gladly pay a trifle for its support. In this way,
- the sly old gentleman got round proud Jo, and furnished her with
- the style of boy in which she most delighted.
-
- Of course it was uphill work at first, and Jo made queer
- mistakes, but the wise Professor steered her safely into calmer
- waters, and the most rampant ragamuffin was conquered in the end.
- How Jo did enjoy her `wilderness of boys', and how poor, dear
- Aunt March would have lamented had she been there to see the
- sacred precincts of prim, well-ordered Plumfield overrun with
- Toms, Dicks, and Harrys! There was a sort of poetic justice
- about it, after all, for the old lady had been the terror of
- the boys for miles around, and now the exiles feasted freely
- on forbidden plums, kicked up the gravel with profane boots un-
- reproved, and played cricket in the big field where the irritable
- `cow with a crumpled horn' used to invite rash youths to come and
- be tossed. It became a sort of boys' paradise, and Laurie sug-
- gested that it should be called the `Bhaer-garten', as a compli-
- ment to its master and appropriate to its inhabitants.
-
- It never was a fashionable school, and the Professor did not
- lay up a fortune, but it was just what Jo intended it to be--`a
- happy, homelike place for boys, who needed teaching, care, and
- kindness'. Every room in the big house was soon full. Every
- little plot in the garden soon had its owner. A regular mena-
- gerie appeared in barn and shed, for pet animals were allowed.
- And three times a day, Jo smiled at her Fritz from the head of
- a long table lined on either side with rows of happy young faces,
- which all turned to her with affectionate eyes, confiding words,
- and grateful hearts, full of love for `Mother Bhaer'. She had
- boys enough now, and did not tire of them, though they were not
- angels, by any means, and some of them caused both Professor and
- Professorin much trouble and anxiety. But her faith in the good
- spot which exists in the heart of the naughtiest, sauciest, most
- tantalizing little ragamuffin gave her patience, skill, and in
- time success, for no mortal boy could hold out long with Father
- Bhaer shining on him as benevolently as the sun, and Mother Bhaer
- forgiving him seventy times seven. Very precious to Jo was the
- friendship of the lads, their penitent sniffs and whispers after
- wrongdoing, their droll or touching little confidences, their
- pleasant enthusiasms, hopes, and plans, even their misfortunes,
- for they only endeared them to her all the more. There were slow
- boys and bashful boys, feeble boys and riotous boys, boys that
- lisped and boys that stuttered, one or two lame ones, and a
- merry little quadroon, who could not be taken in elsewhere, but
- who was welcome to the `Bhaer-garten', though some people pre-
- dicted that his admission would ruin the school.
-
- Yes, Jo was a very happy woman there, in spite of hard work,
- much anxiety, and a perpetual racket. She enjoyed it heartily and
- found the applause of her boys more satisfying than any praise of
- the world, for now she told no stories except to her flock of
- enthusiastic believers and admirers. As the years went on, two
- little lads of her own came to increase her happiness--Rob,
- named for Grandpa, and Teddy, a happy-go-lucky baby, who seemed
- to have inherited his papa's sunshiny temper as well as his
- mother's lively spirit. How they ever grew up alive in that
- whirlpool of boys was a mystery to their grandma and aunts, but
- they flourished like dandelions in spring, and their rough
- nurses loved and served them well.
-
- There were a great many holidays at Plumfield, and one of
- the most delightful was the yearly apple-picking. For then the
- Marches, Laurences, Brookes. And Bhaers turned out in full force
- and made a day of it. Five years after Jo's wedding, one of these
- fruitful festivals occurred, a mellow October day, when the air
- was full of an exhilarating freshness which made the spirits rise
- and the blood dance healthily in the veins. The old orchard wore
- its holiday attire. Goldenrod and asters fringed the mossy walls.
- Grasshoppers skipped briskly in the sere grass, and crickets chir-
- ped like fairy pipers at a feast. Squirrels were busy with their
- small harvesting. Birds twittered their adieux from the alders
- in the lane, and every tree stood ready to send down its shower
- of red or yellow apples at the first shake. Everybody was there.
- Everybody laughed and sang, climbed up and tumbled down. Every-
- body declared that there never had been such a perfect day or
- such a jolly set to enjoy it, and everyone gave themselves up to
- the simple pleasures of the hour as freely as if there were no
- such things as care or sorrow in the world.
-
- Mr. March strolled placidly about, quoting Tusser, Cowley,
- and Columella to Mr. Laurence, while enjoying . . .
-
- The gentle apple's winey juice.
-
- The Professor charged up and down the green aisles like a stout
- Teutonic knight, with a pole for a lance, leading on the boys,
- who made a hook and ladder company of themselves, and performed
- wonders in the way of ground and lofty tumbling. Laurie devoted
- himself to the little ones, rode his small daughter in a bushel-
- basket, took Daisy up among the bird's nests, and kept adventur-
- ous Rob from breaking his neck. Mrs. March and Meg sat among
- the apple piles like a pair of Pomonas, sorting the contributions
- that kept pouring in, while Amy with a beautiful motherly express-
- ion in her face sketched the various groups, and watched over one
- pale lad, who sat adoring her with his little crutch beside him.
-
- Jo was in her element that day, and rushed about, with her
- gown pinned up, and her hat anywhere but on her head, and her
- baby tucked under her arm, ready for any lively adventure which
- might turn up. Little Teddy bore a charmed life, for nothing
- ever happened to him, and Jo never felt any anxiety when he was
- whisked up into a tree by one lad, galloped off on the back of
- another, or supplied with sour russets by his indulgent papa,
- who labored under the Germanic delusion that babies could digest
- anything, from pickled cabbage to buttons, nails, and their own
- small shoes. She knew that little Ted would turn up again in
- time, safe and rosy, dirty and serene, and she always received
- him back with a hearty welcome, for Jo loved her babies tenderly.
-
- At four o'clock a lull took place, and baskets remained
- empty, while the apple pickers rested and compared rents and
- bruises. Then Jo and Meg, with a detachment of the bigger boys,
- set forth the supper on the grass, for an out-of-door tea was
- always the crowning joy of the day. The land literally flowed
- with milk and honey on such occasions, for the lads were not
- required to sit at table, but allowed to partake of refreshment
- as they liked--freedom being the sauce best beloved by the boy-
- ish soul. They availed themselves of the rare privilege to the
- fullest extent, for some tried the pleasing experiment of drink-
- ing mild while standing on their heads, others lent a charm to
- leapfrog by eating pie in the pauses of the game, cookies were
- sown broadcast over the field, and apple turnovers roosted in
- the trees like a new style of bird. The little girls had a
- private tea party, and Ted roved among the edibles at his own
- sweet will.
-
- When no one could eat any more, the Professor proposed the
- first regular toast, which was always drunk at such times--"Aunt
- March, God bless her!" A toast heartily given by the good man,
- who never forgot how much he owed her, and quietly drunk by the
- boys, who had been taught to keep her memory green.
-
- "Now, Grandma's sixtieth birthday! Long life to her, with
- three times three!"
-
- That was given with a will, as you may well believe, and
- the cheering once begun, it was hard to stop it. Everybody's
- health was proposed, form Mr. Laurence, who was considered their
- special patron, to the astonished guinea pig, who had strayed
- from its proper sphere in search of its young master. Demi, as
- the oldest grandchild, then presented the queen of the day with
- various gifts, so numerous that they were transported to the
- festive scene in a wheelbarrow. Funny presents, some of them,
- but what would have been defects to other eyes were ornaments
- to Grandma's--for the children's gifts were all their own. Every
- stitch Daisy's patient little fingers had put into the handker-
- chiefs she hemmed was better than embroidery to Mrs. March. Demi's
- miracle of mechanical skill, though the cover wouldn't shut, Rob's
- footstool had a wiggle in its uneven legs that she declared was
- soothing, and no page of the costly book Amy's child gave her was
- so fair as that on which appeared in tipsy capitals, the words--
- "To dear Grandma, from her little Beth."
-
- During the ceremony the boys had mysteriously disappeared,
- and when Mrs. March had tried to thank her children, and broken
- down, while Teddy wiped her eyes on his pinafore, the Professor
- suddenly began to sing. Then, from above him, voice after voice
- took up the words, and from tree to tree echoed the music of the
- unseen choir, as the boys sang with all their hearts the little
- song that Jo had written, Laurie set to music, and the Professor
- trained his lads to give with the best effect. This was some-
- thing altogether new, and it proved a grand success, for Mrs.
- March couldn't get over her surprise, and insisted on shaking
- hands with every one of the featherless birds, from tall Franz
- and Emil to the little quadroon, who had the sweetest voice of
- all.
-
- After this, the boys dispersed for a final lark, leaving Mrs.
- March and her daughters under the festival tree.
-
- "I don't think I ever ought to call myself `unlucky Jo' again,
- when my greatest wish has been so beautifully gratified," said Mrs.
- Bhaer, taking Teddy's little fist out of the milk pitcher, in which
- he was rapturously churning.
-
- "And yet your life is very different from the one you pictured
- so long ago. Do you remember our castles in the air?" asked Amy,
- smiling as she watched Laurie and John playing cricket with the
- boys.
-
- "Dear fellows! It does my heart good to see them forget bus-
- iness and frolic for a day," answered Jo, who now spoke in a maternal
- way of all mankind. "Yes, I remember, but the life I wanted then
- seems selfish, lonely, and cold to me now. I haven't given up the
- hope that I may write a good book yet, but I can wait, and I'm
- sure it will be all the better for such experiences and illustra-
- tions as these." And Jo pointed from the lively lads in the
- distance to her father, leaning on the Professor's arm, as they
- walked to and fro in the sunshine, deep in one of the conversations
- which both enjoyed so much, and then to her mother, sitting en-
- throned among her daughters, with their children in her lap and at
- her feet, as if all found help and happiness in the face which
- never could grow old to them.
-
- "My castle was the most nearly realized of all. I asked for
- splendid things, to be sure, but in my heart I knew I should be
- satisfied, if I had a little home, and John, and some dear chil-
- dren like these. I've got them all, thank God, and am the
- happiest woman in the world." And Meg laid her hand on her tall
- boy's head, with a face full of tender and devout content.
-
- "My castle is very different from what I planned, but I would
- not alter it, though, like Jo, I don't relinquish all my artistic
- hopes, or confine myself to helping others fulfill their dreams of
- beauty. I've begun to model a figure of baby, and Laurie says it
- is the best thing I've ever done. I think so, myself, and mean
- to do it in marble, so that, whatever happens, I may at least keep
- the image of my little angel."
-
- As Amy spoke, a great tear dropped on the golden hair of the
- sleeping child in her arms, for her one well-beloved daughter was
- a frail little creature and the dread of losing her was the shad-
- ow over Amy's sunshine. This cross was doing much for both father
- and mother, for one love and sorrow bound them closely together.
- Amy's nature was growing sweeter, deeper, and more tender. Laurie
- was growing more serious, strong, and firm, and both were learning
- that beauty, youth, good fortune, even love itself, cannot keep
- care and pain, loss and sorrow, from the most blessed for ...
-
- Into each life some rain must fall,
- Some days must be dark and sad and dreary.
-
- "She is growing better, I am sure of it, my dear. Don't
- despond, but hope and keep happy," said Mrs. March, as tender-
- hearted Daisy stooped from her knee to lay her rosy cheek against
- her little cousin's pale one.
-
- "I never ought to, while I have you to cheer me up, Marmee,
- and Laurie to take more than half of every burden," replied Amy
- warmly. "He never lets me see his anxiety, but is so sweet and
- patient with me, so devoted to Beth, and such a stay and comfort
- to me always that I can't love him enough. So, in spite of my
- one cross, I can say with Meg, `Thank God, I'm a happy woman.'"
-
- "There's no need for me to say it, for everyone can see
- that I'm far happier than I deserve," added Jo, glancing from
- her good husband to her chubby children, tumbling on the grass
- beside her. "Fritz is getting gray and stout. I'm growing as
- thin as a shadow, and am thirty. We never shall be rich, and
- Plumfield may burn up any night, for that incorrigible Tommy
- Bangs will smoke sweet-fern cigars under the bed-clothes,
- though he's set himself afire three times already. But in
- spite of these unromantic facts, I have nothing to complain
- of, and never was so jolly in my life. Excuse the remark, but
- living among boys, I can't help using their expressions now
- and then."
-
- "Yes, Jo, I think your harvest will be a good one," began
- Mrs. March, frightening away a big black cricket that was
- staring Teddy out of countenance.
-
- "Not half so good as yours, Mother. Here it is, and we
- never can thank you enough for the patient sowing and reaping
- you have done," cried Jo, with the loving impetuosity which
- she never would outgrow.
-
- "I hope there will be more wheat and fewer tares every
- year," said Amy softly.
-
- "A large sheaf, but I know there's room in your heart for
- it, Marmee dear," added Meg's tender voice.
-
- Touched to the heart, Mrs. March could only stretch out
- her arms, as if to gather children and grandchildren to herself,
- and say, with face and voice full of motherly love, gratitude,
- and humility...
-
- "Oh, my girls, however long you may live, I never can
- wish you a greater happiness than this!"
-
- END OF LITTLE WOMEN
-